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AH. school started again. i am SO not in the mood for school. its wednesday and so much has already gone wrong. man i wish it was still winter break. i had fun. i pretty much worked every day. i hung out with jake and brie the first week and then the second week i hung out with all my guy friends pretty much...and new years. wow. dont even wanna say what happened that night. it was a good night tho. i had a lot of fun. and i spent time with mike, he just doesnt understnand....lets just say a lil card got handed in. thanks michael
so me and mike are talking again..well i havent talked to him since saturday. and then i bearly talked to him then. i really want to be good friends with him..i seriously do not know what it is about that kid, but its just like ugh i dont know. nobody understands. nobody ever will. and it just sucks cuz something happened between us and it will never be the same. it probaly was a bad idea...... well i dont regret it. i just wish it meant more.
jake got so mad at me and i convinced him not to hate me. he said he could never just be my friend. gr. i dont know. i like him and i really want him to be apart of my life. i cant trust very many people and i feel like i have no true friends. i have not one person to run to when everything goes bad. and he said that he can be that person and i want him to be. im just afraid hes going to change his mind.
why do i keep thinking about it...he cant just come in and out of my life whenever he wants.
illl write more later
so me and mike are talking again..well i havent talked to him since saturday. and then i bearly talked to him then. i really want to be good friends with him..i seriously do not know what it is about that kid, but its just like ugh i dont know. nobody understands. nobody ever will. and it just sucks cuz something happened between us and it will never be the same. it probaly was a bad idea...... well i dont regret it. i just wish it meant more.
jake got so mad at me and i convinced him not to hate me. he said he could never just be my friend. gr. i dont know. i like him and i really want him to be apart of my life. i cant trust very many people and i feel like i have no true friends. i have not one person to run to when everything goes bad. and he said that he can be that person and i want him to be. im just afraid hes going to change his mind.
why do i keep thinking about it...he cant just come in and out of my life whenever he wants.
illl write more later