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[xjesshopex]

so its a four day weekend this weekend. and its saturday. i hung out with brie wednesday nite. then thursday i worked out and the went to work. friday i worked. and this morning i worked. and im hanging out with brie but i dont know what we are gunna do yet. friday before i went to work i went to lunch with jared. all i kept saying to myself before i went was 'i cant do this. why am i doing this?' it was fun tho. we caught up. its SO weird to think about us last year, and now we're total strangers. cuz we never really hung out as just friends till after we broke up. i was use to him paying for me, and picking me up, and holding hands, kissing and hugging all that stuff and now we're JUST friends and it just seems strange to me, i dont know why. im a total different person from last year and just looking back i cant believe how immature and how bitchy i was to him. i cant believe it. he says i wasnt, but i know that he just doesnt want to hurt my feelings. i wish would have done a lot of different things differently. cuz jared is an amazing person and i blew it. and to be honest, he said that people have tried hooking him up with girls but he doesnt want a girlfriend or anything because hes going to college and doesnt want to have that kind of attachment. im glad too cuz idk, it just be too hard for me. GOSH i need to stop thinking about this. its making me upset.
well im gunna go get ready