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my stomach is churning, i hate when something gets to me and just depresses the hell out of me, i am really starting to wonder if im gonna have to live life on my own, i really really really hate not understanding some people, and i really really hate this situation called my life that i have no say in what so ever... have you ever found a number for a friend you hadnt talked to in a long time and you call it one day hoping to rekindle that friendship or you call some one and "the number you are trying to reach has been disconnected or is no longer in service"... well my life feels like im sitting here and the only number i had has been disconected.... sorry, thats really depressing i know... but thats how i feel tonight, i want some sort of sign of hope from something or someone, that actually means something to me, generic its gonna be oks and things will look up are fucking useless and i don't want to hear that, agh jesus i need help, i need hope and i need something solid in my life, cut me some slack...