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im in this really weird mood. Last night i talked to my friend steve and he made me relize i hide alot of my feelings! Everything! im so paranoid to tell anyone b/c i dont want them think im crazy or a depressed siko! lol i got soo emtional that i started to cry a little and i couldnt sleep. Yea sucks for me even more...blake little weirdo was up at 4:30 AM!!! i was like WTF? he wouldnt go bac to sleep! He took alot of naps today but i hate that feeling of gettin up when you sooo exhusted and u fianlly get some winks and then ur woken up...so i didnt really nap with him...i didnt want to be in a bad mood and all pissy and yawnin ever 5 seconds...so im beat today! I didnt do much but watch Van wilder (omg that guy , ryan sumthin...is my dream guy!! OH MY GOD...*drools* ) I know its an old movie but i watched it on On demand comcast Showtime... so it was free :) me and my sister were cracing up..its soo cute. Im soo tired...i cant wait for keith to come pic up blake. Dont get me wrong i love blake sooo much i just need a nap with out any interuptions before i start my lifetime of homework tonight thats all due tommarow! Yes i know, im a procrastinater! :-X but i think i work better under pressure! weird..yes o well... Keith and his family are going to Penn State just saturday and coming home sunday morning. They are taking blake so im gunna be so lonely..i feel really bad going out on the weekends b/c i feel like im beign a bad mom..but me and keiths sced is ...keith has blake thursday night-saturday morning, monday night to wensday morning...and i have him the rest so that gives me friday night to go out now. Its really nice to get out but i feel i shouldnt...ugh i dunno...so this weekend im gunna try not to go out..prob hangout here with my sis and bill. But if they know i dont have blake saturday they will prob have a party...i dunno well see! well its snowing! little flurries...i hate snow this year!! ITS SOO COLD! my dad want to move bac to cali or louisianna! dont ask why LA but wuteva...he loves the south! i think thats wetre i get my lil southern bell accsent :) haha yea right southern accsent my ass...i have the worst speech...o well! im gunna go clean the bathroom...after blakes bath today we made a mess!
