It's For Never.
But I can't breathe.
Its just not fair--you know.
While your lips are busy up top,
your hands are jammed down my chest,
pumping my heart
fast
stopping my breath
clean
What if its all now?
Can I call tommorrow?
Will you be you the next time?
Will there be a next time?
These whispers spiral down my throat
wrap around my lungs
don't let me speak.
Im dizzy
lets stop.
Its a pain I've never felt
A worry gone awry.
Im not meant to feel this way,
Not since the last time.
Ill catch the nesting robin that's burrowing in my chest,
trap it in a cage
I wont let you out.
I can't find the right words in this pool of sodden and soaked phrases
to tell you
I want you to smile
when I don't
I want you to talk
when I don't
I want you to keep going
when I don't.