New Year...New Thoughts...
You know that rock bottom feeling, where things just keep getting worse, and you don't think they'll ever get any better?
That's how 2008 started for me. The uncontrollable crying, wanting to stay in bed all day so you don't have to face anyone, can't eat, can't sleep, and nothing anyone says can change how you feel.
It just took waking up one day and realizing that I was the only one who could make things better to put the necessary changes in motion. 2008 wasn't a great year overall, but in those 12 months, I completely lost myself and then found myself again, a little bit more every day.
I lost a few good friends. Some because of stupid mistakes, miscommunications, silly distractions. Others because they drifted, life got in the way. It makes you realize that most of the relationships you have in your life are on a time limit and you have to cherish them while they're here.
I learned that I have to look out for just me, and do what I feel is right for me. I've spent too much time trying to make other people happy. It's especially hard to care about another person when you're not really sure how you feel about yourself. I held on too tightly to another person when I felt I was worthless, and almost ruined myself in the process.
I learned that life's too short to live by other people's expectations.
I learned that happiness is a state of mind, and you have to really want it.
I learned that sometimes the people you trust the most will be the first to turn their backs on you when times are tough.
I learned that music makes everything go away. The bad things are still there when you come back, but for those few sweet moments, nothing else matters.
I learned that life is precious and you should always say I love you even if you're not sure you'll hear it back.
I learned that a lot of people's loyalties lie in what you can do for them - not what they can do for you.
I learned that some people are just the way they are - no matter how much you want them to change.
I learned you should be happy with who you are and who you love, no matter who that may be.
I learned that first impressions mean nothing. People constantly change.
I learned that sometimes new people in your life are the best listeners because they have nothing to judge you on.
And I learned that I never want to stop learning! That's not to say I'd like to be in school for the rest of my life, but I always want there to be something new and exciting to open up my world!
So here's to 2009 being even better than that!
Hope everyone had a great holiday, and all the best this year.
That's how 2008 started for me. The uncontrollable crying, wanting to stay in bed all day so you don't have to face anyone, can't eat, can't sleep, and nothing anyone says can change how you feel.
It just took waking up one day and realizing that I was the only one who could make things better to put the necessary changes in motion. 2008 wasn't a great year overall, but in those 12 months, I completely lost myself and then found myself again, a little bit more every day.
I lost a few good friends. Some because of stupid mistakes, miscommunications, silly distractions. Others because they drifted, life got in the way. It makes you realize that most of the relationships you have in your life are on a time limit and you have to cherish them while they're here.
I learned that I have to look out for just me, and do what I feel is right for me. I've spent too much time trying to make other people happy. It's especially hard to care about another person when you're not really sure how you feel about yourself. I held on too tightly to another person when I felt I was worthless, and almost ruined myself in the process.
I learned that life's too short to live by other people's expectations.
I learned that happiness is a state of mind, and you have to really want it.
I learned that sometimes the people you trust the most will be the first to turn their backs on you when times are tough.
I learned that music makes everything go away. The bad things are still there when you come back, but for those few sweet moments, nothing else matters.
I learned that life is precious and you should always say I love you even if you're not sure you'll hear it back.
I learned that a lot of people's loyalties lie in what you can do for them - not what they can do for you.
I learned that some people are just the way they are - no matter how much you want them to change.
I learned you should be happy with who you are and who you love, no matter who that may be.
I learned that first impressions mean nothing. People constantly change.
I learned that sometimes new people in your life are the best listeners because they have nothing to judge you on.
And I learned that I never want to stop learning! That's not to say I'd like to be in school for the rest of my life, but I always want there to be something new and exciting to open up my world!
So here's to 2009 being even better than that!
Hope everyone had a great holiday, and all the best this year.