father of mine......
so.....my dad is coming to see me this weekend. my real dad. not the one in eureka. not the one in canada. not the one in L.A. the one i havent seen nor talked to him in 6 years. the dad that was responsible for my birth. im so scared. im shaking right now.....he and i had such a great relationship. we had what i thought was an unbreakable bond.but one day, he packed up and left. i wanna get trashed before he gets here. but that would be the pussy way out of this. i want to so bad......but i know if i do that, itll have severe long term affects on me. i dont wanna be the guy in the bar drinkin my problems away. but what do i say to him? how do i hold a conversation with him? what i really wanna say is " thanks for leaving me asshole, you really fucked " but i couldnt do that. i dont wanna see him cry.......after everything ive been through, i felt like nothing could scare me. i feel about 2 feet tall right now.