You know...

[xjapanimationx]

When she makes me cry, it really really hurts. I can cry alone just fine, just to let it out. But with her....my throat closes, and I can't do much more than nod, fidget, and look down. It makes me feel like I'm choking, and really, nothing else could make me feel worse

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[yuliee]

I think I know how that feels.. my mom has made me cry on several occasions. Mostly after I'm accused of being selfish or ungrateful, like my dad. It doesn't give me the greatest mood, especially since I can feel myself getting more and more distant from his personality. I think I just don't like being judged that way, even though we're related. Considering we're on the same page here.

Well, on the bright side, she decided to take me and Nick to Seattle for the con by train. I could probably still provide that ticket for you, or even transportation, if it's still a problem. I could just use it as my birthday present. (It's in late March anyway - and I don't want you to feel guilty about it being my money, because, well, everybody is always saying that when I offer them things.)

[xjapanimationx]

Noooo no no no no! No way will I let you pay for that. You're insane.
>w<
Thank you for the thought. But I could never let you pay for my registration or anything, I'd really feel horrible.

[yuliee]

WHY DOES EVERYBODY SAY THAT.

WHY.

No, it's settled, I asked my mother. Sakuracon is going to be my birthday present, and you're coming with me. Please. Why does everybody feel horrible when I try to do them favors involving money? It totally defeats the purpose. It's supposed to make them feel better, but it never does because everybody's too stupid and focused on the cost.

Look, if you can't do it as a gift for you, do it as a gift for me. Please, Alicia. I'm going to be bored out of my mind if I don't room with somebody other than my mother and brother. Don't think about the money part. I just want to make somebody happy for once. Can you not afford (no pun intended) to do me that small favor? Nobody else can seem to, anyway. BE THE BETTER MAN. WOMAN. Whatever.

And it doesn't really matter if I'm insane, because I tried establishing that fact a long time ago.

>_< Please don't make me send you on a guilt trip about this.

[xjapanimationx]

I understand that. It's just that sitting here and saying "Okay, I'll let you pay for the whole thing" makes me feel horrible. =_= I mean, I won't completely deny that I'm really tempted. Plus, I want to keep you company. But I bet anything that the words that will come out of my mother's mouth will be "You are NOT letting her pay for all that, you are going to earn that money yourself!"
I suppose I could start trying to convince her. =/

[yuliee]

Er.. I know this isn't the safest idea, but couldn't you tell her you have the money and just.. not show her? Or will she demand to see some kind of registration form? Hate it when parents are like that.

Well, if you're up for it, the trying part might be the best thing.

Is there any way you'd be able to earn money for this in the first place? I mean, if that's possible, you could get enough needed for registration, show her, but then put it away for that choir trip.. I could pay for Seattle boarding and a con, not for New York. (How complicated. ¬_¬ )