I could write the best book , on under age tradgedies
It kills me some times, to look back at where we all were years ago. And what we had. And the fact that none of us realized how lucky we were, or appreciated what we had , an unconditionally loving group of friends who would have died rather than to see each other hurting, until it was lost.
Blame.
Anger.
Finger pointing.
Denial.
Lies.
I wonder at times what happened, but i think we all know. We are ALL to blame. We all cheated each other, let each other down . We all gave up. We all were too self centered , and refused to put aside our pride. we all settled for blaming everyone else for all the problems that arose. Some of us bettered ourselves and moved on with our lives, but it doesn't mean we've forgotten.
It breaks my heart that you have found yourself in the life and condition you are in now. I would have given anything to have found a way to help you, or save you. I watched you slowly become a person i could no longer relate to, a shadow of the amazing, smiling girl who brought so much joy into the life of anyone who knew her. I'd like to think i did everything i could to try to stop it, but who knows. Maybe i could have done more... maybe i gave up. Who knows, it feels like so long ago, a completely different life. I hope you know i always had the best of intentions.
I do know one thing. We always promised we'd always be there for each other. All of us. I for one meant it. Some of my fondest memories involve you. I never stopped caring about you, and hoping inside that you would rise above the life you had chosen. Reading your entry, made me cry. Knowing how completely alone you feel. I hope you know that I hope you really mean it . That you really want to change, and rebuild your life. And that there is still nothing i wouldn't do for you, if i knew it would help.
I remember when you used to smile....
Blame.
Anger.
Finger pointing.
Denial.
Lies.
I wonder at times what happened, but i think we all know. We are ALL to blame. We all cheated each other, let each other down . We all gave up. We all were too self centered , and refused to put aside our pride. we all settled for blaming everyone else for all the problems that arose. Some of us bettered ourselves and moved on with our lives, but it doesn't mean we've forgotten.
It breaks my heart that you have found yourself in the life and condition you are in now. I would have given anything to have found a way to help you, or save you. I watched you slowly become a person i could no longer relate to, a shadow of the amazing, smiling girl who brought so much joy into the life of anyone who knew her. I'd like to think i did everything i could to try to stop it, but who knows. Maybe i could have done more... maybe i gave up. Who knows, it feels like so long ago, a completely different life. I hope you know i always had the best of intentions.
I do know one thing. We always promised we'd always be there for each other. All of us. I for one meant it. Some of my fondest memories involve you. I never stopped caring about you, and hoping inside that you would rise above the life you had chosen. Reading your entry, made me cry. Knowing how completely alone you feel. I hope you know that I hope you really mean it . That you really want to change, and rebuild your life. And that there is still nothing i wouldn't do for you, if i knew it would help.
I remember when you used to smile....