Pondering thoughts
Ya know,im tired of not having a boyfriend. I'm so tired of not having any friends. maybe if i stoped being a bitch i would have some. Ya know that might work with the boyfriend thing as well. It's not like im ugly or anything. People have told me that im a bitch but i just havn't seen it. Maybe its me instead of everyone else. Maybe im just the horrible person. Maybe if i stopped ruining everyone lives and telling lies and and trying to make everyone hate themselves like i hate myself then i will have real friends. Maybe one day ill realize that karma IS GOING TO CATCH UP. It won't anytime soon, because thats usually how it works but... I've really never had any real friends anyways. My parents are embarressed of me bc i plan to live in their house for the rest of my life and don't want to go to college or get a real job. I'm sooo into self expression that i don't really pay attention to the fact that i have to take my peircing out to even apply for a job!