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its funny how in school you learn about things
like child abuse and rape
well no i said that wrong.
the actual subject itself isnt funny, but what''s funny is,
most people think it would never happen to them. And in most cases
it is true. Many go through life without having any problems in that area.
Many a time when i think about how him and i will be close
and "intimate", i cant help but think back to that one time last year at Erin's party.
I will never forget it. It's definitely will never, ever, forget it.
i will not forget how unwanted his touching was, and how uncomfortable to this day it makes me feel to even say his name
and how i couldnt wait for it to be over.
and even though nothing 'serious' happend, i still feel like i was completely fucking used for all those hours of the night
and going back to what i was getting at..
whenever i picture myself being close and cute and cuddly and romantic with my love,
sometimes images of what happend that night jump into my mind and make me feel vulnerable and make me feel like a toy
and i fucking hate this because i love him and i want to be close to him. i really hope i never have this image in my mind again because it just recently happend a couple minutes ago.
i appologize if this makes anyone "uncomfortable" as some other people have posted things that made me uncomfortable and i just freindly told them, and they freaked out on me and called me "homophobic" so im appologizing in advance. *rolls eyes*
like child abuse and rape
well no i said that wrong.
the actual subject itself isnt funny, but what''s funny is,
most people think it would never happen to them. And in most cases
it is true. Many go through life without having any problems in that area.
Many a time when i think about how him and i will be close
and "intimate", i cant help but think back to that one time last year at Erin's party.
I will never forget it. It's definitely will never, ever, forget it.
i will not forget how unwanted his touching was, and how uncomfortable to this day it makes me feel to even say his name
and how i couldnt wait for it to be over.
and even though nothing 'serious' happend, i still feel like i was completely fucking used for all those hours of the night
and going back to what i was getting at..
whenever i picture myself being close and cute and cuddly and romantic with my love,
sometimes images of what happend that night jump into my mind and make me feel vulnerable and make me feel like a toy
and i fucking hate this because i love him and i want to be close to him. i really hope i never have this image in my mind again because it just recently happend a couple minutes ago.
i appologize if this makes anyone "uncomfortable" as some other people have posted things that made me uncomfortable and i just freindly told them, and they freaked out on me and called me "homophobic" so im appologizing in advance. *rolls eyes*