What should I do with my life??
No word back from any grad school yet, but I'm pretty sure I won't be accepted, what with my poor test taking skills and lack of a lot of research experience.
I've started to wonder if I even want to do this psych thing anymore anyway. I don't know if this is just me being a defeatist or if it's a feeling I should take seriously.
I've been thinking about Graphic Art a lot lately. It's kind of a hobby of mine. I think I might look into it and see what I can get from going back and getting a degree in it. At least if I don't get into any grad schools...
I applied for a position at the hospital as a Unit Secretary. They said I was perfectly qualified, but they need someone who can commit for at least a year. So, if I find out that I'll be staying here, they'll hire me. I love the idea of working at the hospital, but I don't know if I want to commit to being a secretary for a year. I think I'd like to get started on my actual career path if I'm going to work full time and plan school around it or with it, you know? My uncle says that it's only a year, that it's not a big deal, but I disagree. I'd like to have a family before I'm 30, and I'd like to have something set so that I can support that family and make it better than all of the other families (this is also a consideration in the whole grad school thing. That's a lot of time and financial insecurity right there...). I also feel that if I delay in getting a solid career path, it's just going to be harder and harder for me to get what I want, and I could wind up stuck in some other job... The Unit Secretary position is something I could have gotten out of High School. It just feels like such a waste.
Short story long I have no clue what I'm doing, and no one can really give me any guidance on this. I'm depressed and scared and over complicating things.
I know I should probably just worry about today and tomorrow and not the days after, but I'm not wired that way.
I wish someone could just come along with all the right answers, but, well, that's kinda stupid of me, isn't it?
I hope that life isn't always like this. I hope things become more clear later.
I've started to wonder if I even want to do this psych thing anymore anyway. I don't know if this is just me being a defeatist or if it's a feeling I should take seriously.
I've been thinking about Graphic Art a lot lately. It's kind of a hobby of mine. I think I might look into it and see what I can get from going back and getting a degree in it. At least if I don't get into any grad schools...
I applied for a position at the hospital as a Unit Secretary. They said I was perfectly qualified, but they need someone who can commit for at least a year. So, if I find out that I'll be staying here, they'll hire me. I love the idea of working at the hospital, but I don't know if I want to commit to being a secretary for a year. I think I'd like to get started on my actual career path if I'm going to work full time and plan school around it or with it, you know? My uncle says that it's only a year, that it's not a big deal, but I disagree. I'd like to have a family before I'm 30, and I'd like to have something set so that I can support that family and make it better than all of the other families (this is also a consideration in the whole grad school thing. That's a lot of time and financial insecurity right there...). I also feel that if I delay in getting a solid career path, it's just going to be harder and harder for me to get what I want, and I could wind up stuck in some other job... The Unit Secretary position is something I could have gotten out of High School. It just feels like such a waste.
Short story long I have no clue what I'm doing, and no one can really give me any guidance on this. I'm depressed and scared and over complicating things.
I know I should probably just worry about today and tomorrow and not the days after, but I'm not wired that way.
I wish someone could just come along with all the right answers, but, well, that's kinda stupid of me, isn't it?
I hope that life isn't always like this. I hope things become more clear later.