fodder
earlier this year. i dont know. my hands in my back.
sometimes when she kisses me i cry. sometimes when we emerge the first thing she does is pisses me off. and that sounds harsher than it is. everything i put down looks wrong. lately im so ignorant its embarrassing. in fact i dont even try to hide it anymore. im a dumb blond. a giggly mess. silly putty. she imprints herself into me.
gonna move her. in here. and lose myself. ive always had too much of me so im not scared. amazed though, that love has so many faces sides sounds flavors textures. i forget to photograph things. i cant remember how to write. the world is ablaze.
im sitting down.
calmly drinking coffee.
remembering.
what it was like.
before her.....