Aug 29, 2005 19:04
There are times when I'm not exactly sure as to where my life is going to be heading in the near future. but I tell you something..I hope it is with heather, because I honestly can say that I love this girl with all my heart. I have been trying to get with her for ever 3 years now. It's kinda crazy I admit, you would think that I would of given up after 3 years.. normally I give up on the first shot, but it's not like that with Heather. There is something about her that has always drawn me to her. Am I dumb?
i don't think I'm dumb when I think about her. I think I'm 100% right with her in my mind. I love this girl with all my heart. I just recently wrote her a letter stating that I will ask her ot marry me again down the future... and hopefully this time.. she will say yes instead of saying "I'm not ready"
I love Heather, and I would give her the world as long as she asked. I would just.. I don't know..
Recently my mother and I have been emailing each other back and forth, and having alittle coversation that we both are comfortable talking about face to face. Homosexuality.
My mom stated in one of her emails that she accepts me no matter who I'm with or whatever I may be. My mom accepts me for who I am. She knows that I a lover of females, she knows that I would pick a female over a male anyday.. So yeah..
My mom picks on me sometimes whenever I talk about girls. But my mom is also an uber christian. I was recently baptized... normally you are suppose to feel a major relief.. well I did.. but it didn't last that long, only because of my stepfather. But I am handling things and the problems that he causes me a whole lot better than I used to... So I'm happy for that. Yeah I'm a dummie when I try to piss him off! lol it normally works! lol
I'm not too sure as to how long I will live with my parents when I graduate.. even though I know I'll be going to LEE COLLEGE here in Baytown. For Visual arts, but what if I don't have the talent to make it...hmmm
well I'll just have to see. I still have 2 years to see where I am going.
School is great at the point and time. I'm liking all of my teachers so far except for one. My Algebra 2 teacher, he treats everyone like they are inferior because he is a "buff coach" I don't care if he is buff or not he will not treat me like i'm inferior..
so yeah that's it for now. Take care babies.
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brittany champane