Jul 16, 2009 18:42
hello,
hmm, at first i wasnt able to accept th fact tht feelings can fade and fall in love with another person so fast.
but now i kinda believe :)
i never thought tht im able to let go everything.
i just dont have to keep thinking of you cos what for?
you arent thinking of me and th past 1yr plus when we had great times.
even if i cry, you don't feel a pinch.
instead you hate it.
i come to senses, finally and i hope.
all these days i kept thinking of tht night when i was with him.
then i thought, been so long nobody has lend me his shoulder to lay on and cry my heart out.
someone who is willing to come all th way down here just to hear my cries and had to tk a cab home in wee hours despite school tml.
sorry, i compared.
you have to understand, someone who dont get wht they used to get will tend to compare when another person give it to 'em.
you get what i mean?
guess thts th reason why i think i fall in love with him.
perhaps not really in love.
maybe is just a crush? infatuation? just plain liking?
whatever it is, i tried to deny hvg feelings for another guy but guess i cannot hide it any longer.
cos it's th fact, alrdy.
sigh, though i know he will never like me.
and another thing could be hatred.
everything u have done to hurt me, terribly.
you won't understand how i feels, totally.
but you WAS a not too bad boyfriend.
i thought i became weak but guess i was wrong.
i was strong, to be able to withstand all these hurting words, lies, liking another girl(s), actions etc.
all i can say is im very proud of myself for being,
faithful and loyal enough, strong, stubborn, selfish, loving, wonderful, caring, extremely nice, sweet, cheerful, humorous, forgiving girlfriend.
all th best.