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[xitsnotoveryetx]

so i'm resorting back to my livejournal, for a few different reasons.  i'm bored, and there's hardly anyone around here with half a brain that i could talk to that can keep me interested for more than 2 minutes, so fuck it i'll just talk to a computer screen.  i'm also not going to get a new journal because i've had this one for 4 or so years and i stay true.  moving on, the past few months i have literally driven myself insane.  if you're wondering how to make yourself mental i could give you the steps, or something like it.  i'm pulling in and out of this depressed, sad fucking mode.  i keep thinking.  thinking, thinking, thinking.  about everything.  then i talk about how i keep thinking about all these things.  then i think about them again.  i don't know what's going on.  i'm ready for something to happen.  everything is going so fast and at the same time it's not going fast enough.  not nearly fast enough.  lately my life is in auto-play it seems.  i'm not living, and i just want something fucking cool and exciting to happen in my life.  the more i talk about it the more i think about it and the more i think about it i'm lead to talking about it and i don't have anyone to talk to because everyone is fucking dumb, so i'm talking to myself and thinking to myself and i'm going insane.  everyone's minds are ran on sex and apparently imagination.  i'm over it!  i'm over the partying, drinking, the same old fucking drunk feeling, the clouded judgement, casual sex, acquaintances.  don't get me wrong i love having fun but i'm just over all the bullshit.  this is part 1.  i'm going to take all of my journal entries and make a book i'm pretty sure.  THATS EXACTLY WHAT I'M GOING TO FUCKING DO.

i really am the smartest person i know and if you disagree it doesn't matter because i'm still right for the most part anyway.  or atleast let me think that.

so basically, whats up.