When the sun came up, we were sleeping in, sunk inside our blankets sprawled across the bed

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Earlier around dusk I was fiercely trying to focus on my schoolwork, but there was almost no possible way. Writing an essay, something I'm great at and fully capable of. As I gathered my facts and opinions and inked them onto the paper, I started doodling hearts and delicate flowers to ease my mind. Ideas and thoughts fused and I was soon out of all concentration. Lyrics, scribbles, and broken letters were soon covering the soft white sheet. My pen was sliding across the paper without notice as the watery gel slipped out to write your name in flawless cursive. My pulse pumping faster than ever, over and over I traced the letters until the paper was bleeding with the solid black liquid. The soaked stationery ripped into pieces along with the feelings in my heart. The black stains are left on my fingers like the memories of you, stained onto my mind. This hurt and loneliness had become so strong without any warning and no notice of arrival. I shred the weightless material up into frayed parts until not one thing was ledgible. The notebook paper gently swayed back and forth in the air, like falling feathers, to the only sunlit part of the floor. I went to write you my confession on a new paper but splotches began appearing when I realized the ink was still on my finger tips. Fear struck but seconds later I was overwhelmed by a calming feeling as I thought to myself, "Don't worry, this ink will wash away darling.. Just like the pain did, remember?"

I wrote another story, its kinda a denial one, it's not a very good. Not about me, just a plain ol story. Sorry if that's annoying, I will stop writing them. Anyway, tomorrows Friday and Saturday shall be an awesome one! I won't be in town but texts and calls are always welcome of course. Oh man this rain is beautiful. Happy Braces Day Shayna!





This pic is so small and wont resize =(
But I made it from my heart just for you.