What happend?
last night was almost a burn. i was just kicken it with fat ass brandon then i went to kick it with tj,chris,and other people. then we thought we knew of a party so we went.but it was a burn so we sat around because they said it didnt start till 930. so we sat around drinking vodka or somthing. ihad 7 shots. then people started to show up. and
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Talking to a "certain someone" last night just proved it!
The "certain someone" was telling me how he isnt gonna speak to a certain girl anymore because he's so angry for her leading him on/ and becoming attached. Telling me how its her fault that he has these massive feelings and that he's mad at her for creating them.
I found myself telling him that he has no one to blame but himself, and that its not HER fault for HIM getting attached. He is the only one that can be aware and cautious of those reactions. Blaming the person you fall for, does nothing but cause problems.
After we got off the phone, it made me ask myself...
WHY THE FUCK IT TOOK ME 9 MONTHS THE REALIZE THAT?
Why is it that Im capable of giving other people my own advice and perspectives on life, yet INCAPABLE of using them upon myself?
It got me back to thinking that...
I did nothing but blame a different 'someone' of my own back in the day. I was in "this someones" same shoes not that long ago and I went through the same bullshit. I was too afraid to admit that I didnt keep my own guard up, that I let myself down for falling in the wrong direction. The easiest thing to do is blame the one you're falling for.
And because of those bottled up feelings, its taken out in anger. Anger that has nowhere to go.
So, What are you supposed to do then?
Well my ignorant ass at the time, -- went nutts. I didnt even know what to do with myself I was so emotionally wrecked!
I tried telling "a certain someone" this story so that he wouldnt have to have the same end result. Who knows if it will do any good. Of course his situation isnt even nearly half as bad as mine was. Im sure hourless nights of them talking/getting to know one another hasnt really existed... well probably not to the extent as mine did.
But hopefully, he will just take in my experiance, and advice so that he doesnt have to live with the enemy of his life.
:)
<3 Lisa
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