it's new year's eve, i'm in glendora.
They say the way you spend your New Year's Eve is a determining factor for how you'll spend the rest of the year. Last New Year's, I was beyond drunk, my boyfriend had gone home early, I was surrounded by really nice strangers, and my two closest friends took care of my drunk ass.
The year was actually a perfect reflection of this one night. I spent the better part of my year under the influence of alcohol. I only had five shots that night, but since I was just a budding drinker, that was enough to fuck me up. I've definitely increased my tolerance to the millionth degree because I've consumed an alcoholic beverage pretty much every weekend of this year.
And it's been fun. There are some people who can have fun without substances and I can too, but I just really prefer to have a little liquid courage running through my veins.
My boyfriend went home early on New Year's Eve last year. So early, that I did not receive a midnight kiss and instead received a midnight phone call. We broke up a few days after the festivities and I've spent all twelve months and twenty-six days of 2008 being completely and utterly single. Sure there have been other boys that I have crawled into bed with or eaten a late dinner with or boys whose hands try to find mine in the dark, but none of them were serious enough. None of them mattered enough.
I've met so many nice people this year. The shy part of me is still in play most days, but it's not as intense as it once was. I've noticed myself growing more social, but this is mainly in occurrence when alcohol is thrown into the mix. I've yet to meet someone while I was at a party who was a total bitch or asshole, which I am extremely thankful for because God knows I can turn into Godzilla in a quick second when I've been drinking.
The people that took care of me last year are now the people I love to no end. We were close at the end of last year also, but it's just increased as time has gone on. And also, Monica is usually the one helping me out when I've had too much to drink, which I'm always extremely grateful for.
This New Year's Eve, I will be spending it with people I love. However, I will be best friend-less since she's decided to go to a rave with a million other people instead of celebrating with me. Boohoo, but at least I will be surrounded once more by people who I actually really love to the depths of my soul.
Most of the people I talk to, speak in disdain over 2008, but I truly truly loved this year. I have never grown so much as a person and never felt so content with who I am as I have this year. I am honestly happy with the person I've become and cannot wait to see the personal growth I will go through in 2009. I know it'll be better.
So, I will look forward to what tonight and the upcoming year brings. My night and year will not be dependent on others, but because I decided to make the best out of it that I possibly could. I hope that all of your New Year's are excellent as well.
The year was actually a perfect reflection of this one night. I spent the better part of my year under the influence of alcohol. I only had five shots that night, but since I was just a budding drinker, that was enough to fuck me up. I've definitely increased my tolerance to the millionth degree because I've consumed an alcoholic beverage pretty much every weekend of this year.
And it's been fun. There are some people who can have fun without substances and I can too, but I just really prefer to have a little liquid courage running through my veins.
My boyfriend went home early on New Year's Eve last year. So early, that I did not receive a midnight kiss and instead received a midnight phone call. We broke up a few days after the festivities and I've spent all twelve months and twenty-six days of 2008 being completely and utterly single. Sure there have been other boys that I have crawled into bed with or eaten a late dinner with or boys whose hands try to find mine in the dark, but none of them were serious enough. None of them mattered enough.
I've met so many nice people this year. The shy part of me is still in play most days, but it's not as intense as it once was. I've noticed myself growing more social, but this is mainly in occurrence when alcohol is thrown into the mix. I've yet to meet someone while I was at a party who was a total bitch or asshole, which I am extremely thankful for because God knows I can turn into Godzilla in a quick second when I've been drinking.
The people that took care of me last year are now the people I love to no end. We were close at the end of last year also, but it's just increased as time has gone on. And also, Monica is usually the one helping me out when I've had too much to drink, which I'm always extremely grateful for.
This New Year's Eve, I will be spending it with people I love. However, I will be best friend-less since she's decided to go to a rave with a million other people instead of celebrating with me. Boohoo, but at least I will be surrounded once more by people who I actually really love to the depths of my soul.
Most of the people I talk to, speak in disdain over 2008, but I truly truly loved this year. I have never grown so much as a person and never felt so content with who I am as I have this year. I am honestly happy with the person I've become and cannot wait to see the personal growth I will go through in 2009. I know it'll be better.
So, I will look forward to what tonight and the upcoming year brings. My night and year will not be dependent on others, but because I decided to make the best out of it that I possibly could. I hope that all of your New Year's are excellent as well.