Nothing comes from nothing
Changing my life is hard, and I often don't know how much progress I'm making, which makes it kind of discouraging sometimes, but I'm pretty sure my progress is "not as much as I want, but definitely more than nothing", so that is enough to keep moving forward!!!
I'll do it. I can do anything. I just don't believe in myself enough yet, but, I am going to slowly and steadily get there, or die trying. I'm still too tired and too lazy all the time and don't know how to fix it. I still worry "how can I ever be an adult like this?!", but I'm doing better than I was last year, and still determined, and that is something good that I can build on. Talking confidently sometimes feels like a lie but I'll keep lying until I believe it.
Getting up in the morning is still my worst enemy... No matter how capable I can make myself feel during the middle of the day, when I wake up it takes forever to convince myself that I feel okay and get my confidence and motivation back and so not wasting time by sleeping late is hard. Going to bed on time is also still hard because I don't like the beginning of the day, so I put off going to bed. Gotta get over this someday!! I've actually been doing better at getting up this summer (i.e. not just sleeping until it's time for work), keeping it up in the Fall (once it gets darker/colder) will be a challenge.
Still have very little confidence in my goals, but facing my goals is the only way to face, so, I'll just keep moving forward and hopefully I will meet up with them at some point?! ^^;;
Lately I'm often wishing I had more people to hold my hand (figuratively) in this and understand me, because trying to be strong by yourself kind of sucks. But that's not how life is; most of the time no one is taking the same journey as you, and I'm already lucky to have the good friends I have. I'm grateful.
I gotta remember this every morning: http://www.plyrics.com/lyrics/histandard/starttoday.html
note to self: stop worrying about you-know-what, you're being retarded. just make yourself more awesome and whatever good things are meant to happen will happen, instead of you having to feel like you're making a desperate fool of yourself ;)
I'll do it. I can do anything. I just don't believe in myself enough yet, but, I am going to slowly and steadily get there, or die trying. I'm still too tired and too lazy all the time and don't know how to fix it. I still worry "how can I ever be an adult like this?!", but I'm doing better than I was last year, and still determined, and that is something good that I can build on. Talking confidently sometimes feels like a lie but I'll keep lying until I believe it.
Getting up in the morning is still my worst enemy... No matter how capable I can make myself feel during the middle of the day, when I wake up it takes forever to convince myself that I feel okay and get my confidence and motivation back and so not wasting time by sleeping late is hard. Going to bed on time is also still hard because I don't like the beginning of the day, so I put off going to bed. Gotta get over this someday!! I've actually been doing better at getting up this summer (i.e. not just sleeping until it's time for work), keeping it up in the Fall (once it gets darker/colder) will be a challenge.
Still have very little confidence in my goals, but facing my goals is the only way to face, so, I'll just keep moving forward and hopefully I will meet up with them at some point?! ^^;;
Lately I'm often wishing I had more people to hold my hand (figuratively) in this and understand me, because trying to be strong by yourself kind of sucks. But that's not how life is; most of the time no one is taking the same journey as you, and I'm already lucky to have the good friends I have. I'm grateful.
I gotta remember this every morning: http://www.plyrics.com/lyrics/histandard/starttoday.html
note to self: stop worrying about you-know-what, you're being retarded. just make yourself more awesome and whatever good things are meant to happen will happen, instead of you having to feel like you're making a desperate fool of yourself ;)