i lied...lame, but true
ok guys, ive been lying to all of you, even ruri and every one, ive been taking alot of crap from every one when i dont have to...it was a lame lie and i dont know why i told it, but here is the truth........
i had been thinking alot about my self and how im not like any of my friends, i dont go to shows or dress hxc, i dont have cool hair and im just a loser, i cant dance i cant do anything, so i figure why try to be those things when i cant? i was edge for my self first and foremost but in the back of my head it was so i could have somthing to be a jerk about, when i see someone smoking or if someone breaks edge, i wanted to be like all of you pretty much, but im a loser so it doesnt really matter. but any ways, as i thought more and more about what my life has been becoming, all this "scene kid" mask crap, i decided, im gonna still live edge but not claim, but when it camearound to telling people my desision i pussed out. i couldent explain to every one, i just dident have the words to say. and so long story short, that whole thing about getting drunk over kylee and crying my self to sleep was all this huge stupid lie i fabricated to get out of edge, stupid i know, but whatever, i never broke and i swear that on my life. (which is more important thant my used to claim "edge") so sorry add that to my list of wrongs, i suck and i know it, i just dident feel i had to claim any more and it was my immaturity that invoked the lie, i truely am sorry.
matt jaffe.
i had been thinking alot about my self and how im not like any of my friends, i dont go to shows or dress hxc, i dont have cool hair and im just a loser, i cant dance i cant do anything, so i figure why try to be those things when i cant? i was edge for my self first and foremost but in the back of my head it was so i could have somthing to be a jerk about, when i see someone smoking or if someone breaks edge, i wanted to be like all of you pretty much, but im a loser so it doesnt really matter. but any ways, as i thought more and more about what my life has been becoming, all this "scene kid" mask crap, i decided, im gonna still live edge but not claim, but when it camearound to telling people my desision i pussed out. i couldent explain to every one, i just dident have the words to say. and so long story short, that whole thing about getting drunk over kylee and crying my self to sleep was all this huge stupid lie i fabricated to get out of edge, stupid i know, but whatever, i never broke and i swear that on my life. (which is more important thant my used to claim "edge") so sorry add that to my list of wrongs, i suck and i know it, i just dident feel i had to claim any more and it was my immaturity that invoked the lie, i truely am sorry.
matt jaffe.