happiness is not always as it seems

[xinsanepsychox]

With the blink of an eye or turn of a door handle a night can be turned right around.
I just got back from seeing the movie Sin City and I must say that it was a very good
movie, and everything was fine.. better yet great. Its amazing how fast things change
though from someones mood, to maybe even the fact of life and death. Just as fast
as the swing of a mood or the spasm of a finger infront of a trigger. A life can be ended
just as fast as my night changed.

I got home to my mom yelling over what I didnt know as of yet, but I would find out.
Almost as soon as I got home I left again with my dad because of stupidity I found out
my mom was yelling, her temper has been hard for her to control even though it would
seem as if there was no attempt at all to contain it. I love my mother, but had it not been
for the fact that I have people I know would miss me or atleast hope would, that I would
have been gone long before. Everything is fine now as it would seem as I sit here writng
this with a smile on my face for reasons even I dont know, Maybe its because I had a
good night with my friends and watched an amazing movie. I dont know but I am glad
that I know enough that even if I ended it here right now I would regret it because I am
in love with life.

Its amazing the fact that a smile can turn a blind eye to the fact that one so happy,
might in fact be a mess and ripped apart inside. Its almost like the cover of a book,
at one point in time it could be soft to the touch but contain something so powerful
and dangerous that you would end it all just to forget you wanted to know.