goddammit
God, it's so frustrating thinking about him. It's so frustrating that whenever i hear his name, i wanna kill him. It's so frustrating because this hate is taking up my mind. And i don't wanna care, i don't wanna think about him. but i do, but not in a nice way. In a way of, i wanna kick him and punch him and kill him and just yell at him and cry and hurt him so much and do what he did to me. I feel sick when i think about him. all the hurt comes rushing back to me when i hear his name or think about him. i feel sick right now just writing this. Idk if this is how its supposed to be, but the pain is like a giant tidal wave when hes on my mind. it hurts so bad right now, and i literally feel sick to my stomach. :( I've never felt like this before, and i never wanna feel like this ever again. He is there, in every aspect of my life, and i fucking hate it. i hate him and i just have no words for him right now. Nothing i say would ever do him the justice that i wanna hurt him. i did everything for you, and i get shit in return...
i fucking hate you gary.
i fucking hate you gary.