game vs. fairfield ludlowe!

[xingvidz]

ugh im really starting to hate lacrosse...field hockeey was so much better. i don't y though..the coach is OK and i like most of my team mates but still don't like it. and today i just found out i have two B+s. the good thing is that my dad will make me quit but then again i still want to be on the team since i made it this far. i probably won't have a choice. i really want to do well in school and constantly i feel exhausted during class and i have a hard listening. then when i get home after practice i rush through hw since the time is limited and i'm really tired. definitely not doing lacrosse next year. omg them next week there is a FBLA test at new jersey that i have to attend and i don't feel like going anymore. first of all i would miss classes and practice if im still playing lacrosse and i don't have a ride there. stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!y did i frickin sign up for that!! im just making everything harder for myself. u know what else pisses me off? spanish because i got an 89, just one point away from an A!!! i felt like crying on the way to math.why couldn't i have aced that quiz instead of getting an 88? why do i always do so bad on chapter tests? why won't the teacher raise my grade one point for participation?? bitch. i really don't feel like staying at some dumb game until 9:00..going to be cold, hungry, and tired. no time to do my hw either. and i going to miss all of my mandarin classes which i enjoy going to because i can be around fobbish ppl and learn chinese so i won't feel like a complete idiot everytime i go back to beijing.

...i feel a little better now but that pretty much sums up my sucky life right now