Welcome To The Club ; Chapter 2
Title: Welcome To The Club
Rating: PG - PG13
This Chapter Rating: PG
Main Pairings: Onew / Key, Kangin / Leeteuk, Yoochun / Junsu, Taeyeon / Jessica, Yoona / Seohyun
Other Pairings: SHINee -, Kangin / , Jessica / Tiffany
Summary: From Leeteuks Cyworld: ..Milk Club...A gathering of depressed souls...Lots of depressed feelings...It feels like I’m starting to enjoy the depression period...Always struggling in loneliness…There have been lots of tears...Hope everyone can understand that loneliness...I thought I had a good ability to hide this loneliness...For the sake of hiding my depression, I joked around more...Like to act fine...But that was definitely not fine...
Author's Note: I like Violent Yoona...And EMO Jinki...i mean Onew...
We’re all victims of unrequited love. It’s a saddening disease that only spreads. We don’t know how to fix it on our own. We need each other’s help.
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“Don’t play with words just because you think you know what love is.”
The room suddenly gets colder and an awkward silence passes before I continue. Everyone turns their heads to me and 4 pairs of eyes watch me in debate. Taeyeon reaches for another tissue as Yoochun shifts in his seat. I gulp.
“If it really is love…”
I think for a second. What am I getting myself into?
‘Is it really? Jinki, are you sure?’
I tell myself.
“If it really is love, then shouldn’t they be loving you back? If it really is what it is, should you even be here right now? Think about it. We should all just stop and stop saying it’s love.”
I tumble around with the words I’ve just said.
‘Why did I say them if I’m the perfect example?’
I think of all the times I’ve said them with meaning and the many times he’s said them back as empty words. I find out that there must be something I’ve done wrong. Or yet something I didn’t do.
“You sound so confident for someone so young…Both of you.”
Yoochun Hyung points at me then at Yoona whose cheeks turn a slight red at the indication. Yoochun Hyung’s voice is intimidating and I cant tell where he’s leading this to. He sounds like he’s choosing his words carefully.
“Onew, why are you here? Whats your story?”
Our eyes meet and I could read every hint of pain in his. Only because mine are exactly the same. And it’s not that hard to look away this time ; Seeing your own suffering in someone else’s eyes. Through damp and teary ones. I fidget in my seat tapping my foot against hard flooring, creating an eerie echo.
“My story? My story isn’t all that special since we all feel the same way. The same emotion; hurt, sadness, anger. And what’s so bad about it is that the other person knows. He knows that I feel this way and refuses to accept it the way it is. I just want him to know that if it’s going to stop hurting we have to be more than this.”
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There’s more crying and Yoona suddenly joins Taeyeon. There’s more hurting, Yoochun and Leeteuk still haven’t changed in expression, still hard, refusing to cry. There’s a lot more hurting and it’s subtle now because we all know how each other feel.
~END ONEW POV~