Good news for people who love bad news
Got some exercise accomplished. Phew.
It sounds SO weird but my new friend Zack is the coolest kid. He's like a mini me.. or he just really reminds me of my 16 year old self. Been texting for a while tonight about viewpoints and crazy families, shitty southern politicians, going to the monster ball, piano, scholarships... I feel like adopting this kid, haha. I just figure if I can lend any kind of teenager advice then I will.
I got on the scale this morning and thank GOD I dropped a few lbs already. What a RELIEF. I feel like I live and die for those stupid numbers but I need to see them going down. Gaining weight is not an option right now.
Eating a yogurt. Sooo good. Oh how I have missed thee!
I'm so sick of myself being such a sad bastard when I talk to Justin at night. Could we possibly talk at a worse time during the day? It's always time to talk to him when my family is right up my ass and I have zero privacy. And then I get upset about it like clockwork every day. Things will be soooo much better when I can stop being paranoid and having to look over my shoulder to see who might be able to hear what I'm saying. I don't care if it's just general conversation - I don't want ANYBODY hearing anything because I don't even want them to know I am happy. As soon as they see me happy they drag me down so it's better to just keep them in the dark about my relationship.
My mom tells me tonight that closing on the house got pushed back until "tentatively" September 15th. Umm.. I really hope that is the case because if it goes back any further than that it is going to seriously set all my plans back. She sounded as if she didn't even know what was going on with it. Uhhhh... I'm pretty sure I need to know what's going on!!! I am banking on that money to get a jump start on everything...
In lighter news, I am going to take some music upstairs and trim my hair. It's been growing out for a whole year already, yay! If I hadn't trimmed it I know it would be a lot longer already but I want it to stay healthy. Right now it is looking pretty rough. Hopefully I can go pick up hair dye tomorrow night with Denise and get this awful brassy orangey stuff out.
*Side note. Luckily my hair is super thick because every time I wash it I am finding that handfuls of hair are falling out!!!! What gives? I read that PCOS causes male pattern baldness - HOORAY! Maybe that's why my hair is so thin in the front and thick in the back!!! Denise has PCOS and her hair is really thin and practically bald in a lot of spots. Look what I have to look forward to! I always joked that my hair would fall out before I turn 30 because of all the chemicals I have used on it... didn't exactly think it would start falling out at 23.
It sounds SO weird but my new friend Zack is the coolest kid. He's like a mini me.. or he just really reminds me of my 16 year old self. Been texting for a while tonight about viewpoints and crazy families, shitty southern politicians, going to the monster ball, piano, scholarships... I feel like adopting this kid, haha. I just figure if I can lend any kind of teenager advice then I will.
I got on the scale this morning and thank GOD I dropped a few lbs already. What a RELIEF. I feel like I live and die for those stupid numbers but I need to see them going down. Gaining weight is not an option right now.
Eating a yogurt. Sooo good. Oh how I have missed thee!
I'm so sick of myself being such a sad bastard when I talk to Justin at night. Could we possibly talk at a worse time during the day? It's always time to talk to him when my family is right up my ass and I have zero privacy. And then I get upset about it like clockwork every day. Things will be soooo much better when I can stop being paranoid and having to look over my shoulder to see who might be able to hear what I'm saying. I don't care if it's just general conversation - I don't want ANYBODY hearing anything because I don't even want them to know I am happy. As soon as they see me happy they drag me down so it's better to just keep them in the dark about my relationship.
My mom tells me tonight that closing on the house got pushed back until "tentatively" September 15th. Umm.. I really hope that is the case because if it goes back any further than that it is going to seriously set all my plans back. She sounded as if she didn't even know what was going on with it. Uhhhh... I'm pretty sure I need to know what's going on!!! I am banking on that money to get a jump start on everything...
In lighter news, I am going to take some music upstairs and trim my hair. It's been growing out for a whole year already, yay! If I hadn't trimmed it I know it would be a lot longer already but I want it to stay healthy. Right now it is looking pretty rough. Hopefully I can go pick up hair dye tomorrow night with Denise and get this awful brassy orangey stuff out.
*Side note. Luckily my hair is super thick because every time I wash it I am finding that handfuls of hair are falling out!!!! What gives? I read that PCOS causes male pattern baldness - HOORAY! Maybe that's why my hair is so thin in the front and thick in the back!!! Denise has PCOS and her hair is really thin and practically bald in a lot of spots. Look what I have to look forward to! I always joked that my hair would fall out before I turn 30 because of all the chemicals I have used on it... didn't exactly think it would start falling out at 23.