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this weekend Jesse and I went to Yosemite and goddamn I haven’t felt this way since Owl. Jesse is his own man, but this FEELING. He’s a stable advanced version of that guy. He’s outdoors, masculine, sensitive, sweet, romantic, secure. He’s open about his feelings and we can just all for hours. I don’t feel as if he’s judgy. we hiked, stopped a bunch and hung out at spots, and laughed a bunch, and it was so much fun. he leaves no rock unturned and shows he’s thinking of me often. he made me a candle and wrote me a poem and he’s into me just as much as i’m into him. so many many many feelings! i guess he deleted his dating profile when i did and we are committed. i told him on our hike that i wasn’t able to say any wedding vows. i was supposed to come up with something to say but i couldn’t, but with him i feel like i have so much to say. it’s like everything i say has real meaning now. my world has reopened and im living again