hello there, the angel from my nightmares...
too much..just too much for me to understand or to handle. i feel all i do is hurt people, it's what i hate the most though. i wish i could take all the pain i've been putting on others and just keep it for myself. it would be alot i know but i just wish i could more than anything. i can't stand hurting people just because they care about me. they should get a reward but instead all i do is hurt them. and i try, i TRY so hard to prevent it, but nomatter what i do it happens. i'm like a plague or a curse. why is it like this? why am i the one who has to be like this? is it my fault i'm sure alot would say yes. and why the FUCK am i sittin here feelin sorry for myselfe after i'm the one that did the hurting.i guess i should just be alone forever to revent this kinda stuff...but...i'm too selfish for that, why am i so fuckin selfish! i don't have anyone to love me because everyone i love i hurt...:-\