You know my dream has always been...a freight train leaving town
I grew up small town but I knew I'd get out of it somehow..."
To anyone who has known me more than a year. You know how HARD this week is for me. How big of a mess I'm going to be tomorrow.
And that friday is the same solitary night at services it always is. Surrounded by old women, old teachers, and people who aren't even sure I belong to the congregation. (but she sure has a lovely voice Janice...) stomach aching, eyes burning.
Every year I've sworn to write something for him...until I feel like I've written the RIGHT piece. I haven't started this year's yet. But I have this gallon of tears I'm holding in which I will let go of eventually and then maybe I can write something that will make someone else cry.
For those of you who don't know me...as Arty asked me to do sum up your life in simple terms.
"My Name is Reva, I have a boyfriend named Garth. My parents are getting divorced, I had a cat named Thor but my dad stole him, almost everyone I've ever loved has died."
6 years tomorrow, to the date. The kid I grew up with who I always thought would be there FOREVER took his own life, less than a month before his 14th birthday.
Happy October.
To anyone who has known me more than a year. You know how HARD this week is for me. How big of a mess I'm going to be tomorrow.
And that friday is the same solitary night at services it always is. Surrounded by old women, old teachers, and people who aren't even sure I belong to the congregation. (but she sure has a lovely voice Janice...) stomach aching, eyes burning.
Every year I've sworn to write something for him...until I feel like I've written the RIGHT piece. I haven't started this year's yet. But I have this gallon of tears I'm holding in which I will let go of eventually and then maybe I can write something that will make someone else cry.
For those of you who don't know me...as Arty asked me to do sum up your life in simple terms.
"My Name is Reva, I have a boyfriend named Garth. My parents are getting divorced, I had a cat named Thor but my dad stole him, almost everyone I've ever loved has died."
6 years tomorrow, to the date. The kid I grew up with who I always thought would be there FOREVER took his own life, less than a month before his 14th birthday.
Happy October.