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so i've been sick for the past couple of days..does anyone care no?
nobody came to see me nobody called. who cares about me....
i've learned over the past couple days you cant give anybody your
heart..even though you love them. your heart should be yours &&
nobody else should be able to handle it. i wish i realized this some
time sooner. i just hope it doesnt break again. me & mike haven't
been good at all lately. its actually really hard to believe we're going
out. he doesnt call me. unless i tell him to. he forgets to. he doesnt
realize that it hurts me. but really who cares. right now im trying not
to cry. tomarrow is me and mikes 8 months. i wish i could say 8 months
of happieness but really it has been like maybe 5 or 6 months of that
and 2 months of wonder. neither of us know what we want anymore
im hurt & i dont want to cry. i just wish mike was how he used to be.
i never had to call him. i never had to beg to him to call. when i cry'd
he was always there for me. even if it was just bullshit i was crying
over. he used to be a shoulder i could lean on. but not anymore. i
dont understand why he changed like that. at all. i used to be able
to tell him everything, he used to have feeling about everything. he
used to be such a heart warming person who would help me thro
everything but now he always says whatever, he has no feeling &&
i feel like he doesnt care about me. i dont know the truth anymore.
i just wish he would show feeling to me. it hurts not knowing things
but what happenes in the future happens. and if i get hurt i get hurt
im used to it by now, but this time it will be different, i know i won't
be able to control myself. because if this ends my life crumble....
im crying now i need to go ill update someother time...
i love him so much. but i don't think he understands at all..
nobody came to see me nobody called. who cares about me....
i've learned over the past couple days you cant give anybody your
heart..even though you love them. your heart should be yours &&
nobody else should be able to handle it. i wish i realized this some
time sooner. i just hope it doesnt break again. me & mike haven't
been good at all lately. its actually really hard to believe we're going
out. he doesnt call me. unless i tell him to. he forgets to. he doesnt
realize that it hurts me. but really who cares. right now im trying not
to cry. tomarrow is me and mikes 8 months. i wish i could say 8 months
of happieness but really it has been like maybe 5 or 6 months of that
and 2 months of wonder. neither of us know what we want anymore
im hurt & i dont want to cry. i just wish mike was how he used to be.
i never had to call him. i never had to beg to him to call. when i cry'd
he was always there for me. even if it was just bullshit i was crying
over. he used to be a shoulder i could lean on. but not anymore. i
dont understand why he changed like that. at all. i used to be able
to tell him everything, he used to have feeling about everything. he
used to be such a heart warming person who would help me thro
everything but now he always says whatever, he has no feeling &&
i feel like he doesnt care about me. i dont know the truth anymore.
i just wish he would show feeling to me. it hurts not knowing things
but what happenes in the future happens. and if i get hurt i get hurt
im used to it by now, but this time it will be different, i know i won't
be able to control myself. because if this ends my life crumble....
im crying now i need to go ill update someother time...
i love him so much. but i don't think he understands at all..