dont know wat to do nemore....

[ximlostx]

I've completely lost my mind. I dont know what to do anymore, it's like everything in my life has left me in order to find myself again and become a different person. I dont know how i feel bout people in my heart, in my mind, i just dont know how i feel about life. Is everything just one big joke, a trick being played on me so that i fall for everyone's bullshit? Maybe someone can possibly help me here!!??!! I don't know what to do anymore. I need a lot of time to myself to figure this all out. So anyways, today was another waste of a day. I woke up at like 1045ish, went to school, took my math regents, it was a lot easier than i expected, left at like 2ish, walked home, sat here and did nothing all day. I went to the fields at like 600ish hung out with some people, went for a ride with jon peterson, and than hung out with some people again, than went home and now i'm here. O and while i was at the fields, i waited for Shawn to show up like he said he would but he never came, so yea, pretty upset bout that, but i'll get over it. So yesterday and today i decided that sometimes, when you think you think you feel one way, it usually means the opposite. To the specific someone i'm talking about (i hope you no who u are) - u no exactly what i'm talking about. So yea, i dont know what to do with my life anymore, im not gonna give up or anything, but im lost and confused and need help. g2g dads yelling. toodles<3

i like shawn!<3