Awake like no otherrr
k so its liek only 1:06 AM...but for the past liek 4 hours i've been online talkin to greg. Its been good. Im so extremly awake its not even funny...well i guess the dr. pepper i drank around 11 had something to do with it. hah but yea we've been talkin bout lots of stuff. I felt like someone finally listens to me. I havent had a long talk with anyone in a long time...and if i did they prboably didnt listen. Im goin so incredibly insane right now though...my eye kills like no other...i feel like i gots so many eye lashes in my eye but i dont see them when i look in the mirror. Im shaking and i dont kno why...its weird...for some reason i have all theese what if's in my head. then my mind keeps thinking bout what i've ever done wrong to make a certain person hate me so much. I guess Im never sticking up for people again...all i get in return is a big stab in the back. Lovely, then a threat which the person later said they wouldnt do but you just never know. I have a weird feeling of anxiety right now and its not cool. I dont know. I feel not myself lately. It's weird. Like, i feel as if somebody else is leading my life and im just watching it from somewhere else. I've been in this weird lil zone of my own. To top that off my allergies have been pretty bad the past few days. Its sooo hott in this house, i feel like im going to pass out, the fans on full blast...my thoughts are everywhere. if this ends up not making sence sorri but my head is telling me it does =\ my stomach hurts and i really dont feel good at the moment. My spring break is boring. Like i said in my other entry i wish there was repeat button so i could repeat sunday. but watever, thats my wish but things like that will never happen...when pigs can fly it will happen. Im not sure what else to say at this point. I guess i should atleast give sleep a try, everyone else has gone to bed including greg so i might as well try. oo and thanx greg for keeping me occupied tonight online. and thanx for listning to all that random crap i was saying. heh. oh happy st. patricks day all. i am irish so this is my day =\ uhh sweet dreams all? heh