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I really do hate this time of the month when your emotions are all hay wire and there's not a god damn thing you can do about it. I'm in the stage where you don't know weather you want ot cry of yell at some one for no real reason but just to do it. I dont get my self sometimes...I'm sure no one does well, Terrance pretends to but i know he thinks im crazy sometimes. Well one good thing that i can think of off the top of my head is I have been off physico pills now for almost 2 months and i feel great i think moving in with Terrance was just what i needed he always seams to calm me down from a panic atack even when he has no idea hes doing it its so nice. I'm scared to say i thinking I'm lossing touch with Jessy I know she will alway be my best friend it just seams like she has no time for me any more but i can't blame other people for me not keeping in touch It's not like it should be hard seen is how i only have 3 friends that i actualy talk to I know jessy will always be there for me but i guess i just need to see every one to get my head back on straght Cheri on the other hand is now expecting so really no time for anyone else well at least not me expecaly after pressing her for the money her mom o's me for the car i sold her. I really hate when people send you on guilt trips to make you feel like you life is no where near as important as there's.......I'm so adicted to Sex And The City i dont even know why because i dont even believe half the shit that they say about sex I sure that made no seence to anyone reading this but for exampel last weeks show one of the girls broke up with a man because she didnt orgasm with him and that talked about how that was to important in sex but i really dont think so i think you can enjoy sex just as much if you dont get your "O" but maybe i just think that....I noiticed no one ever comments on my shit ne more which is just what i'm talking about i have fallen off the face of the earth well at least thats what its starting to feal like. I have a feeling that next mounth is going to be an emotional one i'm not sire just yet but i'm feeling pesimistic. I wish i was older so Terrance and I could start our life together with out the stress im getting from him mom i am once agian loosing my hair in chunks and i'm getting fat Terrance says im not but I DEFFENTLY AM i tryed on a pair of my pants the other day for an interview and they didnt fit they were big oon me before......This is the best most loving perfect relaitonship i have ever been in i just wish my perrents and some friends would stop trying to get me to come home I DONT WANT TO!! I'm gong to finish school when im ready and im not gonna get pregnent Terrance wont let me......Of corse id like a baby god everyone else gets one and most of them dont even want them i know its to soon...Well thats what im told but yea wheatever please no one comment on that part of my entry i dont even want to hear it. Awww Terrance is grinding i love it...one more thing then im done if any one knows anything about analyzing dreams let me know cuz i have had some weird ones that i want some answers to.