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for 13 years ive been made of stone. nothing breaks me and i dont cry.
these past few weeks have been ridiculous. i find myself wanting to cry every single day. and for stupid reasons. i mean, i guess they make sense but i hate it. and i hate that half the time i dont actually cry i just feel like i need to but i cant get it out. its getting old.
its december. only 3 months until i move. this is so crazy. im so excited and so speechless and hearbroken and sad and happy all at once. any emotion you can fathom... im feeling it.
i have been such a piss face lately because of it. because i dont know how to express myself. the tiniest question becomes an argument.
"hey can i use your phone real quick to call your mom?'
"why cant yuo buy yourself a new fucking phone?? im so sick of you guys!"
clearly an overreaction. bah well... ill pull through. i have awesome friends.
these past few weeks have been ridiculous. i find myself wanting to cry every single day. and for stupid reasons. i mean, i guess they make sense but i hate it. and i hate that half the time i dont actually cry i just feel like i need to but i cant get it out. its getting old.
its december. only 3 months until i move. this is so crazy. im so excited and so speechless and hearbroken and sad and happy all at once. any emotion you can fathom... im feeling it.
i have been such a piss face lately because of it. because i dont know how to express myself. the tiniest question becomes an argument.
"hey can i use your phone real quick to call your mom?'
"why cant yuo buy yourself a new fucking phone?? im so sick of you guys!"
clearly an overreaction. bah well... ill pull through. i have awesome friends.