arrrggg

[xilovebuyox]

SO my sister left this morning for river trip...got the house to myself...but now all i want to do is sleep. Oh well. So i helped paint our float tofay and got paint on the underside of my black skirt. Then i decided to take the long way home and go kanan to the freeway...to maybe see if i could catch beautiful again(eyes, hair, hat...ahhh) anyway, Kanan is a frickin long street with lots of red liights and i almost rear ended someone because they didn't signal soon engough and then this trucjk ahead of me though i go to close to him so he started waving his hands around. Then i tried to get on the freeway bt couoldn't switch lanes..so i went down this road theat runs along the freeway only to discover that it dead ends...so i did a u-turn in dirt and went back took for ever to turn and finally got on the freeway and came home...went picked up food and brought the dog in the car

I am sad...or i just feel wierd...like i don't know what...depressed maybe - life in general, anxious- stupid show who cars about the freshman just post the list, sad- haven't talked to my friend, lonely- kinda, but in that boyfriend way not friend way. I don't know....maybe its just the whole senior ajustment thing...or maybe its that i REALLY WANT TO GO TO LONDON AND SCOTLANd.....but as my mom reminds me if i don't go i wasn't supoosed to...but i really can't see why i wouldn't be supoosed to ....anyway...my fingers hurt...and i need to go eat cookie dough...maybe that will fix me...and i have had the urge to binge (but not throwup after cuz that's gross) but any seniors...girls in partricular feeling weird let me know....i need to see my therapst...the end