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kinda been ignoring this livejournal... my bad.
So finally things seem to be working out again. I guess its only natural in life to have those extra hard moments to make the easy ones worth it. Everyone knows about my break up with Ryan. It was mutual. And had been happening for 2 months now. Yes, i'll be the first to admit it was really hard on me. And yes it is really hard to try to move on after that. But we're still good friends like we have been for the past 4 years. Anyways... I've got an interview with IADT on friday. Which is the school I want to go to. And it happens to be about 3 minutes from my house. I hope everything works out and I can go there. I really want to head back to school soon. I've decided I can't keep my life on hold for some lawsuit that might not be settled until I'm 20. Which is coming sooner than expected. I'm also looking at cars so I can finally have my own. I'm just piling up that debt haha, I guess it's what i do best. Still working for my mom, less than part time but it's enough to cover the bills. When I found out more about the school I will problly try to look for something better. In the meanwhile I'm trying to pursue modeling a bit more. Opened a ModelMayhem account and I've gotten really good feedback for only having it a few days. So I'm going to try to get some what of a portfolio going. We'll see if it all works out. I'm really trying to be more positive, and not let negativity run my life. Or the "I can'ts". I want to do things that make me happy. And not let anyone hold me back from what I want. I couldn't have gotten through this really rough time in my life without Alex or my friends. Alex has been there for me through everything and stuck out my bullshit for the longest. I still can't understand why, but he did. He always takes care of me. Everyone always hates that part of being with me, but he loves it. And now things are progressing with us. He asked me out with roses and a kitten. Haha what guy does that? Perfect, I tell you. He knows the way to win my heart. I guess thats it really. Keeping my head up this time and not letting anything or anyone stop me.
I'm happy again...
and all I have to say is... It's about damn time.