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so this is it man, my dog was out to sleep even though he was only two, almost three he was allrgic to something and it killed him, my love life is in the trash its fucking raining i dont know but life is so horrible. like is a nightmare and all i want to do is leave and smoke cigarettes, i dont even want to go to college anymore,i dont have the drive to, im so sick of life and what it does i dont even want to fight it and become something, ozzies dead, you say youll change you say things will get better, i know you dont want me to leave yet the only time hat i feel like im worth soemthing to you are the moments where i say id ont want to be with you and you actually hold me and tell me you Dont want me to leave and that shit will work ou, well it wont, not with me feeling like this. my parents dont want ana nother dog, i dont knwo how um going to do this. im hurting non stop all the time, with my friends without them wioth pat withouth him with my parents by the table on easter all the fucking time,im miserable and i drove myself to it. my posts are fucking sad i am fucking sad, why is my life like this. what do i have to do, no one is ever going to make me happy becaiuse they will either be assholes or do something fucked up to me or make me feel worthless or i just wont like them in the first place. ozzies gone, and ive fucking had it man.