Fist day alive
Tough days... I know how I get through them, but man... I dont know where i get the strength. Ive been ok. Summer is kind of moving slower than Id like for it to this year (2005). The highlight of every week that I get to live through, is church. I love it... it is basically my home. But I am going on so many trips and vacations this year.. and its kinda making me a bit depressed. Dont get me wrong.. I love being with my family, i love the memories ( most of the time), I love the places... but its hard to find happiness in all the bickering sometimes. Its hard to get alone with God when everyone thinks you are sad when you are off alone. Its hard to read and listen... when your mind wont stop racing the seconds... so im stressed... but I am... i keep telling myself this... I AM VERY very blessed. I may not have a lot. my family may be running out of money... and we may even lose some of the things that are neccessary in this life. such as a house, cars, food... electricy. But I am so blessed. and I think thats what I am happy about right now. I am being humiliated... so i can become humble... and then I will be able to get up from my knees and say... "I still need you Jesus." for now... prayers would be great. I need LOTS of will power. But I am going to go. and until next time... May God be with you, keep you, and bless you. May His face shine upon yours and may you be grateful. <3 kid.