On Call...
It was only distance, it was only a phone call.
Today, uneventful story of my life. Smile, I'm a loser. Well lets see I bought hair dye today, It's a "medium" brown, but going from blonde it looks like a very DARK brown, but that is just how it goes, people seem to like the change, although the only thing that changed dramtically is how I look so much more like Brittany, it's kind of creepy. Tomorrows Keith Urban concert, exciting? Not really, just something diffrent...hopefully I will be more thankful after it is over. I don't really get excited over much of anything these days, I hate it. I need to do something new, find something new...SOMETHING NEW!!!!! What else, I am in Arcadia and we got to see Erik, Joey, and Jake, cool kids let me tell you, Erik fed us, it was quite delightful. While we were there Jesse called and kid you not I was going to call him like 2 seconds before the phone rang, What a concidence, we are way alike. Well he talked to Brittany and got things with her all figured out, and then I talked to him for a little bit. He was just talking to me about how things are, and how he wish they were, and how he needs things to change, and I completely understood every word he said, it's like talking to my feelings as if they had a voice. He makes more sense then anyone could possibley even began to when it comes to trying to put everything with me in perspective, it's awesome and maybe this is why I am so scared to let him get a little pushed back in my head, I just can't. He wants to come home so bad and as much as I want him back and need him to be here, I can't tell him, I don't want him to give up the oppurtunity that is there for him, honestly I wish I had it, he has an awesome family life, and awesome house, and more then enough ways to make a good amount of money, so a visit YES definately needed, and he plans on it soon, but maybe it's his seperation anxiety talking. He talked to me today about one of his friends from Tallahasse that is starting to have feelings for him, I felt like someone stabbed me with a knife, It's not feelnigs but more of a revenge to get back at her ex, and I just dont want him to get caught up in anything that is that dumb. He talked to me a lot about how he cant stand it up there and I think we have a major role in his dislike of that place he just wants his friends and family. We are still waiting, we arent going anywhere, and he should know this. Also he made sure that I was fine with everything said to me and what scares me is that I am more then fine, I seriously think with anyone esle I would definately run away and be a little freaked out but with him it's just like I understand him way to well. He is exactly what I need to have around and he is staying there. I ramble way to much about him, but what else can you do, I hope I see him soon and we are all back to normal, until then I am going to go lay down my head is pounding.
Goodnight.
Today, uneventful story of my life. Smile, I'm a loser. Well lets see I bought hair dye today, It's a "medium" brown, but going from blonde it looks like a very DARK brown, but that is just how it goes, people seem to like the change, although the only thing that changed dramtically is how I look so much more like Brittany, it's kind of creepy. Tomorrows Keith Urban concert, exciting? Not really, just something diffrent...hopefully I will be more thankful after it is over. I don't really get excited over much of anything these days, I hate it. I need to do something new, find something new...SOMETHING NEW!!!!! What else, I am in Arcadia and we got to see Erik, Joey, and Jake, cool kids let me tell you, Erik fed us, it was quite delightful. While we were there Jesse called and kid you not I was going to call him like 2 seconds before the phone rang, What a concidence, we are way alike. Well he talked to Brittany and got things with her all figured out, and then I talked to him for a little bit. He was just talking to me about how things are, and how he wish they were, and how he needs things to change, and I completely understood every word he said, it's like talking to my feelings as if they had a voice. He makes more sense then anyone could possibley even began to when it comes to trying to put everything with me in perspective, it's awesome and maybe this is why I am so scared to let him get a little pushed back in my head, I just can't. He wants to come home so bad and as much as I want him back and need him to be here, I can't tell him, I don't want him to give up the oppurtunity that is there for him, honestly I wish I had it, he has an awesome family life, and awesome house, and more then enough ways to make a good amount of money, so a visit YES definately needed, and he plans on it soon, but maybe it's his seperation anxiety talking. He talked to me today about one of his friends from Tallahasse that is starting to have feelings for him, I felt like someone stabbed me with a knife, It's not feelnigs but more of a revenge to get back at her ex, and I just dont want him to get caught up in anything that is that dumb. He talked to me a lot about how he cant stand it up there and I think we have a major role in his dislike of that place he just wants his friends and family. We are still waiting, we arent going anywhere, and he should know this. Also he made sure that I was fine with everything said to me and what scares me is that I am more then fine, I seriously think with anyone esle I would definately run away and be a little freaked out but with him it's just like I understand him way to well. He is exactly what I need to have around and he is staying there. I ramble way to much about him, but what else can you do, I hope I see him soon and we are all back to normal, until then I am going to go lay down my head is pounding.
Goodnight.