Horoscope Truth.
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Aries (Mar 21 - Apr 19)
Although slowing down to cool off may be a great idea, it won't be an easy path to follow. You could be fixing for a fight, yet not necessarily a physical encounter. You are moody today, even angry, for circumstances aren't going your way. Unfortunately there isn't a sensible target for your aggression -- and this is exactly why you should chill out. But don't bury your feelings. Instead, experience and then release them.
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i think its really amusing when horoscopes are actually very true, & in my case lately they have been pin point exactly 100% true.
today i have been PISSED.. like i dont know, for the first half of the day i wasnt feeling well cause i was like blacking out and stuff but then towards the end of the day i was getting freakin pissed off at everrrrrryone!
i think alot of people are shit. honestly alot of people put me through too much. People like to test the boundries with me, they like to see how much crap they can put me through before i lash back and make me hate them. or get pissed at them. Sometimes i think im very incapable of actually hating a friend, im not saying i cant hate anybody, boy oh boy i can hate some people. HA, but then i just hate how my friends..the people who are supposed to have my back or supposidly supposed to treat me right end up not being there when i need them, or they dont tell me things... like they lie, or they use me because i have connections or something. im like crap duude how much do you want me to go through, there is a point where it goes from little tests to, if people knew how much shit i go through they would ask me why im still their friends?
you know why? honestly sometimes i dont. i think its cause, for the most part of my life i have never really lost a friend because of problems with us, all my friends that i have lost is because they went to another school and we just slowly lost touch, which is understandble.. but even then, i have friends who live in different cities and im still as close to them as i was when they lived here. i dont want to loose people who i know i am soo close to, but we have 'problems' damnnnn why is it that everything gets super complicated. i never understand it. and it ALWAYS seems like im the one that wants to work on the friendship.. the other friend never does. then i put so much effort and time and then i get stabbed in the friggin back. you know how much the SUCKS? alot i gotta tell you.
well, if you must know, i am not getting fuckin stepped on anymore. ANYMOREEE. im done, there is no way. i hate it. i have it happend to numerous times lately, and you know i think if they actually valued our friendship enough they would put an effort too. im not saying that im not putting in anymore effort if this happens again, but im saying if they arent pulling their weight, im dropping it. i waste too much of my energy trying. and what comes out of it? nothing. they do occasionally put in some effort, but it will be one out of 100 times i have tried. they want to only be there when THEY want to be there, not when i need them. its only a friendship when they need me. forget you if thats a fact, im not a subsitute good friend when someone wont answer your call and your just bored and want to talk to someone. forget you, i need someone to talk too and if you arent there when i need you most, then...i know how you really feel.
its not a waste being their friend, i would and do cherish the times we have had.. its just that, i dont want to waste anymore time on continuious back stabbing. like there is no way im doing that anymore, i know i do have alot of really good friends that are there for me 100% and have my back and wouldnt do anything to hurt me. i just have to weed out the bad ones, it just sucks if you have been friends with them for a while now and you confide to them your deepest secrets and dreams, and it seems like they dont care. Whatever thats what i got to say to that. WHATEVER, if you dont care and dont put the effort, then hey man.. dont expect me to pull the weight, cause that weight gets heavy after a while and you need two people pulling it.
I am currently watching this chapter close. As it ends, i know a new one will start, and hopefully this is a good one. Full of new hopes and dreams... but with all books the chapters have to tie in, otherwise its a wholee new complete book, so you know something might happen. i just dont want to get hurt anymore...i know my life is very good, and i shouldnt be complaining, and i do very very very very very much thankful for my life and i am very gracious. but.... i dont think that still allows people to walk all over me, i know i am a nice person and i am finding out nice people get used... alot. i try to be there for others then... they think i will be there and any moment, risking everything...dropping things at a dime... just for them but then when i need them? what happens then, they arent there. i just think that some of my friends are not friends really... they just like to put that title on me so...they can use me for favors, and for....daaamn it. im not mad anymore.. hahahaha i like that writing really helps...well the angry is still there, but after writing all this, and rereading it... it really helps, i like writing out my angry here.
i do try though, if someone sees that i put the effort, and helps with solving problems that we have with each other, i dont abandon them, i am always there for my friends, which i think is a good thing about myself. i value friendships so much. but.. i really dont like it when i get used, which does happen alot apperantly.
Aries (Mar 21 - Apr 19)
Although slowing down to cool off may be a great idea, it won't be an easy path to follow. You could be fixing for a fight, yet not necessarily a physical encounter. You are moody today, even angry, for circumstances aren't going your way. Unfortunately there isn't a sensible target for your aggression -- and this is exactly why you should chill out. But don't bury your feelings. Instead, experience and then release them.
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i think its really amusing when horoscopes are actually very true, & in my case lately they have been pin point exactly 100% true.
today i have been PISSED.. like i dont know, for the first half of the day i wasnt feeling well cause i was like blacking out and stuff but then towards the end of the day i was getting freakin pissed off at everrrrrryone!
i think alot of people are shit. honestly alot of people put me through too much. People like to test the boundries with me, they like to see how much crap they can put me through before i lash back and make me hate them. or get pissed at them. Sometimes i think im very incapable of actually hating a friend, im not saying i cant hate anybody, boy oh boy i can hate some people. HA, but then i just hate how my friends..the people who are supposed to have my back or supposidly supposed to treat me right end up not being there when i need them, or they dont tell me things... like they lie, or they use me because i have connections or something. im like crap duude how much do you want me to go through, there is a point where it goes from little tests to, if people knew how much shit i go through they would ask me why im still their friends?
you know why? honestly sometimes i dont. i think its cause, for the most part of my life i have never really lost a friend because of problems with us, all my friends that i have lost is because they went to another school and we just slowly lost touch, which is understandble.. but even then, i have friends who live in different cities and im still as close to them as i was when they lived here. i dont want to loose people who i know i am soo close to, but we have 'problems' damnnnn why is it that everything gets super complicated. i never understand it. and it ALWAYS seems like im the one that wants to work on the friendship.. the other friend never does. then i put so much effort and time and then i get stabbed in the friggin back. you know how much the SUCKS? alot i gotta tell you.
well, if you must know, i am not getting fuckin stepped on anymore. ANYMOREEE. im done, there is no way. i hate it. i have it happend to numerous times lately, and you know i think if they actually valued our friendship enough they would put an effort too. im not saying that im not putting in anymore effort if this happens again, but im saying if they arent pulling their weight, im dropping it. i waste too much of my energy trying. and what comes out of it? nothing. they do occasionally put in some effort, but it will be one out of 100 times i have tried. they want to only be there when THEY want to be there, not when i need them. its only a friendship when they need me. forget you if thats a fact, im not a subsitute good friend when someone wont answer your call and your just bored and want to talk to someone. forget you, i need someone to talk too and if you arent there when i need you most, then...i know how you really feel.
its not a waste being their friend, i would and do cherish the times we have had.. its just that, i dont want to waste anymore time on continuious back stabbing. like there is no way im doing that anymore, i know i do have alot of really good friends that are there for me 100% and have my back and wouldnt do anything to hurt me. i just have to weed out the bad ones, it just sucks if you have been friends with them for a while now and you confide to them your deepest secrets and dreams, and it seems like they dont care. Whatever thats what i got to say to that. WHATEVER, if you dont care and dont put the effort, then hey man.. dont expect me to pull the weight, cause that weight gets heavy after a while and you need two people pulling it.
I am currently watching this chapter close. As it ends, i know a new one will start, and hopefully this is a good one. Full of new hopes and dreams... but with all books the chapters have to tie in, otherwise its a wholee new complete book, so you know something might happen. i just dont want to get hurt anymore...i know my life is very good, and i shouldnt be complaining, and i do very very very very very much thankful for my life and i am very gracious. but.... i dont think that still allows people to walk all over me, i know i am a nice person and i am finding out nice people get used... alot. i try to be there for others then... they think i will be there and any moment, risking everything...dropping things at a dime... just for them but then when i need them? what happens then, they arent there. i just think that some of my friends are not friends really... they just like to put that title on me so...they can use me for favors, and for....daaamn it. im not mad anymore.. hahahaha i like that writing really helps...well the angry is still there, but after writing all this, and rereading it... it really helps, i like writing out my angry here.
i do try though, if someone sees that i put the effort, and helps with solving problems that we have with each other, i dont abandon them, i am always there for my friends, which i think is a good thing about myself. i value friendships so much. but.. i really dont like it when i get used, which does happen alot apperantly.