Decent weekend.
I went out for once. Decided to go play pool. It has been so long since I was last around the general populace. As much as things change it usualy only of surface value. As none of you know I moved at the begining of december and have been very buisy setting down roots since my name is actualy on a lease. It's true there is actualy some place I live not just reside. "SCARY" With less people in my life alot has calmed down. Canvas and spoonfed are playing together the weekend after christmass though I will being missing it and catching up with them that sunday at a drum jam canvas is throwing in austin. Going to see the family that weekend will probably need the decrompression.
Ah the grandparents have finally hit the final string in my mom. She is now to the point that she loves them but as people and the way that they expect our family to drop everything for there wishes she doesn't like them. GO mom. Was wondering when this would happen. Most of you would supprised to know I have family much less the problems that it has. This is not the place to describe it and many know I'm not the best with emotions. It's the reason the emotional attunement hit me the hardest so many years ago. It is easier to hide and shroud oneself in mysterey and silence to be apart of the rest of the world. There are many secrets that hold true and one seems to be that that we are all alone a temple out in the mountains no matter wether other building or monument spring up around you still sit alone.
When it all comes down to it are you capable of carring for yourself and those that you choose to or is it all about you. You cann't help others if you cann't help yourself. That is the base of the piller. To get everything taken care of then to help others. This isn't just about money or even anything that can be held in your hands. Irony is that what we all seek lies in ones self the only problem is seeing it or admitting it. You make the choice of how you live your life.
Ah the grandparents have finally hit the final string in my mom. She is now to the point that she loves them but as people and the way that they expect our family to drop everything for there wishes she doesn't like them. GO mom. Was wondering when this would happen. Most of you would supprised to know I have family much less the problems that it has. This is not the place to describe it and many know I'm not the best with emotions. It's the reason the emotional attunement hit me the hardest so many years ago. It is easier to hide and shroud oneself in mysterey and silence to be apart of the rest of the world. There are many secrets that hold true and one seems to be that that we are all alone a temple out in the mountains no matter wether other building or monument spring up around you still sit alone.
When it all comes down to it are you capable of carring for yourself and those that you choose to or is it all about you. You cann't help others if you cann't help yourself. That is the base of the piller. To get everything taken care of then to help others. This isn't just about money or even anything that can be held in your hands. Irony is that what we all seek lies in ones self the only problem is seeing it or admitting it. You make the choice of how you live your life.