I learned that...
1. Letting go isn't easy.
Yeah. Particularly when you really don't want to let go. So why didn't I? I guess I was scared of being alone.
2. Being single isn't all that bad.
Okay, so maybe I was missing out on some things for a while. It felt different when my phone fell silent; phone calls at 2 AM suddenly disappeared. No I love you's, no I miss you's, no hugs and kisses. But my friends kept me occupied. They called just to check up on me. They brought me to bars, went drinking, or just took out for a ride around the city. They made me realize that it's nice not being bound to someone, especially when that relationship isn't healthy anymore. I got to do things without feeling guilty about anything, and I did things for myself and not for anybody else. Best of all, I got to see who he really was as a person. It's just my bad that I wasted 10 months of my life being with a guy who wasn't worth it.
3. Taking things slow are A-okay.
After reeling from a big disappointment is difficult, and I had to work my way up slowly to regain whatever dignity I have left. Ha! Good thing somebody came along before I sunk further down. And when you really do take things slow, you find that everyday is a different experience, and you keep falling in love even more. :D
4. People who have some form of resentment against you are going to do everything to put you down.
It's human nature--I admit to doing that myself. Thing is, some people can't keep it down, and of course, I wind up knowing about what they say. They even went so far as to involve other people I deeply care about when they shouldn't be. I've been called many things in my life--fat, ugly, Shrek, tanga, and my mistake was that I cared about what they said when I shouldn't have. Why should I? I am what I am, and I love who I am. I'm not perfect, but at least I make up for whatever I don't have. I'm not trying hard to be somebody I'm not--I'm not a poser. Yeah, so I'm fat, but at least somebody's keeping me healthy. I may not be all that pretty, but at least somebody loves me for who I am. Besides, I have everything I'll ever need, and everybody else is on my side, so really, why should I care? If there's one thing I learned, it's that I learned to respect myself. Which is why I shouldn't stoop as LOW.
5. It's nice to be open about some stuff with parents.
I remember one day in October how I told my dad about what I was feeling--that I felt like I wanted to give up on Nursing and all that drama. I needed him to help me out; I was at that point when one more frustration threatened to break me apart. I was having a hard time trying to juggle school, friends, work, and family at the same time. It was the time when I was getting stressed because I was getting less and less sleep because of too much homework, plus frustrations about getting to clinical sites either because they're too far, or I don't know where they are. So, in an effort to help me out, you know what my dad did?
He bought me a car. :D
Okay, it's not only that, although life did get a whole lot better with the Malibu. I liked that my dad listened to me, and I'm gla I took the chance to be open about what I was feeling. My dad was older, and naturally a lot wiser than I am, since he had done all that. It was nice to be encouraged by someone who means a lot to you--it meant that they're backing you up on this, whatever happens.
6. It's okay to experience a heartbreak to find the right love.
At least something good came out of it. If it wasn't for that heartbreak, I wouldn't have met my baby. :D
Rob and Me aka "The Captain and His Nurse" at Rita's Get Together, 12292006
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And a Meme gacked from friendster. Mwahaha.
IN 2006, HAVE YOU:
[x] Kissed anyone
[x] Hugged anyone
[x] Been out of state
[x] Gone on vacation
[ ] Failed (dropped) a class
[ ] Been camping
[ ] Ridden a roller coaster
[ ] Gone snow boarding
[ ] Played laser tag
[ ] Been out of the country
[x] Laughed so hard it hurt
[ ] Had surgery
[x] Been to a bonfire
[ ] Made smores
[ ] Went tanning
[x] Made a mistake
[ ] Prank called anyone
[ ] Dyed your hair
[x] Chopped off a lot of your hair
[ ] Broken any bones
[ ] Been in a physical fight
[x] Played hide and seek
[x] Been to a funeral
[x] Said something to someone you wish you could take back
[x] Been to the circus
[ ] Shot a gun
[x] Passed out
[x] Played a sport
[x] Been to the hospital
[ ] Been pantsed
[ ] Lost your voice
[ ] Gone to the zoo
[x] Been shopping
[x] Cooked your own food
[ ] played paintball
[ ] Gone mudding
[ ] Painted a room
[x] Lost weight
[ ] Gone four wheeling
[ ] Lost someone important to you
[ ] Slept for over 12 hours
[x] freaked out
[x] wished you were somewhere other than where you are right now
[x] loved someone so much it hurt to breathe
Here's to hoping that 2007 will be even better. Happy New Year!
Yeah. Particularly when you really don't want to let go. So why didn't I? I guess I was scared of being alone.
2. Being single isn't all that bad.
Okay, so maybe I was missing out on some things for a while. It felt different when my phone fell silent; phone calls at 2 AM suddenly disappeared. No I love you's, no I miss you's, no hugs and kisses. But my friends kept me occupied. They called just to check up on me. They brought me to bars, went drinking, or just took out for a ride around the city. They made me realize that it's nice not being bound to someone, especially when that relationship isn't healthy anymore. I got to do things without feeling guilty about anything, and I did things for myself and not for anybody else. Best of all, I got to see who he really was as a person. It's just my bad that I wasted 10 months of my life being with a guy who wasn't worth it.
3. Taking things slow are A-okay.
After reeling from a big disappointment is difficult, and I had to work my way up slowly to regain whatever dignity I have left. Ha! Good thing somebody came along before I sunk further down. And when you really do take things slow, you find that everyday is a different experience, and you keep falling in love even more. :D
4. People who have some form of resentment against you are going to do everything to put you down.
It's human nature--I admit to doing that myself. Thing is, some people can't keep it down, and of course, I wind up knowing about what they say. They even went so far as to involve other people I deeply care about when they shouldn't be. I've been called many things in my life--fat, ugly, Shrek, tanga, and my mistake was that I cared about what they said when I shouldn't have. Why should I? I am what I am, and I love who I am. I'm not perfect, but at least I make up for whatever I don't have. I'm not trying hard to be somebody I'm not--I'm not a poser. Yeah, so I'm fat, but at least somebody's keeping me healthy. I may not be all that pretty, but at least somebody loves me for who I am. Besides, I have everything I'll ever need, and everybody else is on my side, so really, why should I care? If there's one thing I learned, it's that I learned to respect myself. Which is why I shouldn't stoop as LOW.
5. It's nice to be open about some stuff with parents.
I remember one day in October how I told my dad about what I was feeling--that I felt like I wanted to give up on Nursing and all that drama. I needed him to help me out; I was at that point when one more frustration threatened to break me apart. I was having a hard time trying to juggle school, friends, work, and family at the same time. It was the time when I was getting stressed because I was getting less and less sleep because of too much homework, plus frustrations about getting to clinical sites either because they're too far, or I don't know where they are. So, in an effort to help me out, you know what my dad did?
He bought me a car. :D
Okay, it's not only that, although life did get a whole lot better with the Malibu. I liked that my dad listened to me, and I'm gla I took the chance to be open about what I was feeling. My dad was older, and naturally a lot wiser than I am, since he had done all that. It was nice to be encouraged by someone who means a lot to you--it meant that they're backing you up on this, whatever happens.
6. It's okay to experience a heartbreak to find the right love.
At least something good came out of it. If it wasn't for that heartbreak, I wouldn't have met my baby. :D
Rob and Me aka "The Captain and His Nurse" at Rita's Get Together, 12292006
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And a Meme gacked from friendster. Mwahaha.
IN 2006, HAVE YOU:
[x] Kissed anyone
[x] Hugged anyone
[x] Been out of state
[x] Gone on vacation
[ ] Failed (dropped) a class
[ ] Been camping
[ ] Ridden a roller coaster
[ ] Gone snow boarding
[ ] Played laser tag
[ ] Been out of the country
[x] Laughed so hard it hurt
[ ] Had surgery
[x] Been to a bonfire
[ ] Made smores
[ ] Went tanning
[x] Made a mistake
[ ] Prank called anyone
[ ] Dyed your hair
[x] Chopped off a lot of your hair
[ ] Broken any bones
[ ] Been in a physical fight
[x] Played hide and seek
[x] Been to a funeral
[x] Said something to someone you wish you could take back
[x] Been to the circus
[ ] Shot a gun
[x] Passed out
[x] Played a sport
[x] Been to the hospital
[ ] Been pantsed
[ ] Lost your voice
[ ] Gone to the zoo
[x] Been shopping
[x] Cooked your own food
[ ] played paintball
[ ] Gone mudding
[ ] Painted a room
[x] Lost weight
[ ] Gone four wheeling
[ ] Lost someone important to you
[ ] Slept for over 12 hours
[x] freaked out
[x] wished you were somewhere other than where you are right now
[x] loved someone so much it hurt to breathe
Here's to hoping that 2007 will be even better. Happy New Year!