Baby, Baby, Where Did the 513 Pain Go?
I wrote Plans and Decisions to make the pain go away - and for a number of reasons I ended up sticking 100 percent with canon, including every painful, OOC, plot-devicey moment of season 5. Forcing myself to do that actually brought me one of my greatest moments of authorial joy, answering the question, "Why wasn't Justin at Babylon the night it re-opened?"
I had to re-watch a scene in 513 this morning in order to get something clear for the next chapter of Decisions, and it was a scene I hate. After I watched it, I left the TV on while I did a few chores, and the next thing I knew, I was sitting there watching the show. And for the first time, it didn't hurt. Not at all. My story has gotten so deep into my head that all my explanations and motivations have simply gotten superimposed on what happened in canon so much that it Just. Doesn't. Hurt. Anymore.
And this is reason number four thousand seven hundred sixty two why fan fiction is a good thing.
I had to re-watch a scene in 513 this morning in order to get something clear for the next chapter of Decisions, and it was a scene I hate. After I watched it, I left the TV on while I did a few chores, and the next thing I knew, I was sitting there watching the show. And for the first time, it didn't hurt. Not at all. My story has gotten so deep into my head that all my explanations and motivations have simply gotten superimposed on what happened in canon so much that it Just. Doesn't. Hurt. Anymore.
And this is reason number four thousand seven hundred sixty two why fan fiction is a good thing.