nothing is real
every day i live in a dream. nothing seems real. everything i see is so surreal. sometimes i don't even know if it exists. even myself. i dont know. my fingers. my face. my hair. my toes. my body. it all seems so strange and unreal. everything has lost some of its touch one way or another. i don't know how to even explain this all the way. i have never told anyone this before. everything i look at is somewhat and always a distant blur. everything i touch i dont know if it feels like something because i cant always feel it. my head is always cloudy. there are no more racing thoughts. just blurry images and surreal mental photography. ok here it goes. i dont think i am real. i dont think anything is real. it is always like a dream. weird. i question reality all the time. i get sick thinking about it. but to me everything is perfect. i dont like it sometimes but for the most part its perfect. i dont even know what making sense means. i live in a dream. like when i look at someones face when i am talking to them or look around me and at my surroundings. is it real. what is real. i don't know...