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i havent updated in forever, hey im back! well until 5 weeks and im back off to zante :D for how long well 2 weeks as planned maybe til the end of summer i dont know. things are up & down atm. im emotionally unstable i keep crying lots and then the next day im fine. Im missing rob alot & i dont know where we stand anymore. The day i got back off holiday he picked me up from the airport and took me home. As i went to go he grabbed me and started hugging me really tight then he kissed me. It was totally unexpected seens as before i went away we werent getting on. The next day i told him i was going back away and he didnt like it. Started rabbiting on how he was thinking about us getting back together. Well i think it was all talk coz now hes not even talking to me. i dont get it one bit. Im trying not to let it get to me, but when he acts the way he does its hard not too. I just wish i knew were i stood thats all, but even that seems to difficult for him to explain. idk all i know is i do love him but theres only so much i can do the rest is upto him. Workwise im lookin for a new job i want more money until i start my police training which seems like its never gonna happen but ive NEVER given up on anything and i dnt intend to start now. ill try and update more often just sometimes i dont feel like letting it all out. maybe i should ? x