My family always turns to me for everything..They depend on me
I got a call from my dad yesterday and it's weired cause he doesn't call me often. I should have known though that his call was only to express his frustration with my mother and her constant misuse of money. He wants me to talk to her as always and lecture her....now I remember correctly parents are to lecture their kids not the other way around. You know I love my family so very much its painful to turn my back on them and say "solve your own problems, cause I have my own life to live." I feel for my step dad cause he is the greatest man I know. It is from him that I learned to become self-sufficient, responsible,a hard-worker, and so much more that my mother, my own blood forgot or lacked the skills to teach me. I hate to say it but my mother doesn't deserve such a great man.She doesn't know how to appreciate the best things in life....her kids, her husband, her health...she gambles it all away...damn I really hate her sometimes.Why can't she change...why can't she see her mistakes and stop fucking up all our lives...Fuck even up here, hundreds of miles away from SD I still feel her pressures...my family turns to me for guidance and I don't have it in me anymore to deal with it. Fuck why is life so fucking difficult...WHY can parents be such assholes...FUCK!!!!! I don't want to fight with my mother anymore, I don't want to hear my families problems anymore, I don't want to be seen as the strength of my family cause I honestly don't have it in me any more to keep things peaceful. I don't want my family to fall apart but I can't keep them together anymore. My mom has lost our house, our savings, our dignity,...our childhood, our fucking happiness and will soon lose all of us cause she is driving us out with her greed. I don't know what to do anymore..