Yeah.
Oh well. anyway sorry girls.. like I'm really kinda busy with my work here and there..
like I'm not into mood to do a lot of things recently..
but you know I just wanna rant out today. like literally scolding vulgarities to those who are screwing my life/thoughts this few days.
Well CONGRATS you did it. But yeah I'll give you my middle finger as the reward. Seriously.
First of all,
people, stop being so sensitive. Get it over and done with it.
I know it's not going to concern anything about me, but yeah you know it yourself.
I'm not going to give in or give up on what I'd decided.
Like I'm not going to return to the past,
I'm happy as I am now with trustworthy friends,
My boyfriend whom I think I love more and more now,
Like I don't need the past like how I am before.
I don't wanna cling onto like people who I don't trust,
Like backstabbers EVERYWHERE,
And most importantly, stop fucking trying to click me together with people I don't like anymore.
First you are not my God,
Second neither are you my parents,
Third you are not my future husband.
If you aren't any of those 3 above,
I think I got the right to choose who I wanna be friends with.
And like I dont really need your advice if like I walk the wrong path or something,
like hey, you just talk to me once in a decades,
stop acting like you know the me now so well.
I've changed. If you are not one of them who knew what happened to me,
you are one of the changes too.
kthxbye.
Second like seriously Uni.
I know what I wanna do. I know what I wanna become.
I love the course I wanna be in I wanna study also.
I'm so fucking half-hearted it's because my family doesnt seems to be helping in the situation.
They dont know what's design about, they acted like they know something but no.
I'm so lazy to defend is because I see no use talking MY WORLD of logic into yours.
All the things that people have been doing it's so BOOK TO BOOK, LAW TO LAW.
like screw it. I know it's my life, I know who gave me this life,
but I just wanna be DIFFERENT at some point of time.
I just wanna test/trust/see it for myself to do something I like.
WHY DO YOU ALL ALWAYS HAVE TO PUT PRESSURE ON WHAT I WANNA DO?!
and I thought my father was understand, saying he will support me..
BUT NO, what the hell are you doing?
Asking mother or brother to talk to me trying to add on pressure to me like fuck it okay seriously.
I'm so pissed angry and lost and fucking irritated by all of the comments.
Like CANT YOU JUST LET ME FINISH MY THINGS AND I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING.
Seriously. How much can you trust me? 0. I bet it's 0.
What fucking trust what fucking support.
you know what I need most now? PEACE.
like I dont care if you fucking support me, ask me stop worrying about the money stuff.
OF COURSE you dont have to worry. I'm the one gonna pay for it anyways.
What on earth is my family. I'm so pissed.
Sorry that you have this kind of daughter. I'm not badly influence by anyone.
If you all wanna blame. You can blame me, but you have to blame those who made me become like this.
Like I'm just gonna take a stone at a time.
Fuck all the HELPING TIPS. It's not helping.
And lastly, I hate my Final year project.
3 more weeks to graduate.
I fucking hate the state I'm in now.
like I bet some people might be happy to see I'm in the state like this,
but hey I dont mind. At least I'm worried about myself.
I'm being pessimistic today because I dont feel happy today.
Pissed off, fucked up feelings all around me.
I guess I wont be here for a few weeks.
But I'll assure the mails will be out on monday.
Sorry for the delay girls :(
And sorry for being so cocky today.
like I'm not into mood to do a lot of things recently..
but you know I just wanna rant out today. like literally scolding vulgarities to those who are screwing my life/thoughts this few days.
Well CONGRATS you did it. But yeah I'll give you my middle finger as the reward. Seriously.
First of all,
people, stop being so sensitive. Get it over and done with it.
I know it's not going to concern anything about me, but yeah you know it yourself.
I'm not going to give in or give up on what I'd decided.
Like I'm not going to return to the past,
I'm happy as I am now with trustworthy friends,
My boyfriend whom I think I love more and more now,
Like I don't need the past like how I am before.
I don't wanna cling onto like people who I don't trust,
Like backstabbers EVERYWHERE,
And most importantly, stop fucking trying to click me together with people I don't like anymore.
First you are not my God,
Second neither are you my parents,
Third you are not my future husband.
If you aren't any of those 3 above,
I think I got the right to choose who I wanna be friends with.
And like I dont really need your advice if like I walk the wrong path or something,
like hey, you just talk to me once in a decades,
stop acting like you know the me now so well.
I've changed. If you are not one of them who knew what happened to me,
you are one of the changes too.
kthxbye.
Second like seriously Uni.
I know what I wanna do. I know what I wanna become.
I love the course I wanna be in I wanna study also.
I'm so fucking half-hearted it's because my family doesnt seems to be helping in the situation.
They dont know what's design about, they acted like they know something but no.
I'm so lazy to defend is because I see no use talking MY WORLD of logic into yours.
All the things that people have been doing it's so BOOK TO BOOK, LAW TO LAW.
like screw it. I know it's my life, I know who gave me this life,
but I just wanna be DIFFERENT at some point of time.
I just wanna test/trust/see it for myself to do something I like.
WHY DO YOU ALL ALWAYS HAVE TO PUT PRESSURE ON WHAT I WANNA DO?!
and I thought my father was understand, saying he will support me..
BUT NO, what the hell are you doing?
Asking mother or brother to talk to me trying to add on pressure to me like fuck it okay seriously.
I'm so pissed angry and lost and fucking irritated by all of the comments.
Like CANT YOU JUST LET ME FINISH MY THINGS AND I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING.
Seriously. How much can you trust me? 0. I bet it's 0.
What fucking trust what fucking support.
you know what I need most now? PEACE.
like I dont care if you fucking support me, ask me stop worrying about the money stuff.
OF COURSE you dont have to worry. I'm the one gonna pay for it anyways.
What on earth is my family. I'm so pissed.
Sorry that you have this kind of daughter. I'm not badly influence by anyone.
If you all wanna blame. You can blame me, but you have to blame those who made me become like this.
Like I'm just gonna take a stone at a time.
Fuck all the HELPING TIPS. It's not helping.
And lastly, I hate my Final year project.
3 more weeks to graduate.
I fucking hate the state I'm in now.
like I bet some people might be happy to see I'm in the state like this,
but hey I dont mind. At least I'm worried about myself.
I'm being pessimistic today because I dont feel happy today.
Pissed off, fucked up feelings all around me.
I guess I wont be here for a few weeks.
But I'll assure the mails will be out on monday.
Sorry for the delay girls :(
And sorry for being so cocky today.