Letter of apology
I am sorry that I cannot be of much help. It hurts me to see you like that. You have hardly been smiling ever since you started work. It is like you have gone through a 180 degrees transformation and I can hardly recognise you right now. How is it that someone who is always joyful, smiling and laughing at everything, can turn into a bittergourd, crying herself to sleep every night while trying to be strong infront of her friends and colleagues? What is worse is that she does not even dare to cry out in her guy's presence, for fear that she will irritate him. And people, we all know how hard it is to have to hold our tears back when we actually want to pour out all our feelings right?
I guess I was just too insensitive to realise it earlier, but it really is getting worse as the days go by, isn't it? Ironically, I keep telling you to persevere and not to quit, making you go through hell over and over again. I really do not know what I should say or do to make you feel better and it makes me feel lousy just standing there keeping quiet cause I do not want you to think that I am not bothered at all.
I should not have been so harsh on you, forcing my ideas and beliefs on to you when you are already so stressed out. "Have more confidence in yourself, tell yourself you can do it." Now that is a load of bullshit that you did not need. Like I said, I am too much of a pig to actually notice we are two different people, and what might work for me might not actually work for you. I am not the one facing the callers everyday, I am not the one being scolded, so what right does it give me to impose my thoughts on to you?
MJ, all I am trying to say is, you can always let go of your feelings when you are with me. I am not here just for the good times, but for the bad times as well. I want to be there for you. From now on, I will stop giving you my five cents worth of advice and just shut up and listen to you rant. I will just keep quiet and assure you that I am there for you just by my presence alone. Feel free to cry, complain. There is no need to worry that you will irritate me, let me handle that. If I get irritated when my girl tells me about her problems, it just means that I am not patient enough for her and I should strive to be bigger hearted.
"We'll hold each other's hands and go through all the obstacles and problems with face in our journey."
Remember that MJ.