life sucks...
So ya, life is defineately sucking some major ass right now. I'm honestly the lonliest I've ever been. I miss have someone to cuddle with, I miss being on the phone until 2 AM just giggling and fighting who says good-bye first. I miss holding hands, flirting, and walking down the beach.
Right now, with the exception of Julie, my friends suck. ya ofcourse they say their there for me, but their actions speak otherwise... and remember kids, actions speak louder than words. Julie and I went to Panera yesterday and had almost a 2 hour talk, just catching up on one another. I really miss how things used to be with her. She really was my best friend, and I could always count on her, it just sucks i wasn't always the same to her. Than we went to the mall today, and had an awesome time just being our weird, nerdy selves haha! I think she's alot better influence on me than anyone else, and right now I think thats what i need the most, and someone who will let me talk and just listen (and give advice ofcourse).
So it's getting down to the wire. Bobbi's leaving in like 2 months. It's gonna be one hard, lonely summer without my big sister. everytime i start to think about, i start to get tears in my eyes. ever since my license situation happened, she's been there for me. (Well ofcourse she was before, i just didnt know it). She's like my other half. Like only now, i believe I can trust her with my life. She's been the very best person to talk about, because unlike anyone else, she's been there with me, and knows EXACTLY what I'm going through with my parents. Even though it'll be the funnest summer ever (because of Europe), I'll be on that 8 hour flight back, and know that i have to let my big sister go the next day. my instincts tell me she'll be fine, but i dunno about me yet. I know ofcourse we'll be able to talk and see her like once a couple months or so, but it sucks. She gets to move on with her life, and I'm stuck in seminole with my parents. God this summer's gonna be hard... I love you though!
Ya so enough drama has gone on, that i've become so numb to it all. I don't really care anymore. Like nothing really fazes me anymore. I think it's great, but maybe not. Eric stopped calling me (thank god), but now i have a new one... Mike... oh god what the hell, i always track the weird ones. He calls me TOOO MUCH!!!! but anyways I'm gonna work alittle bit more on humanities before i go to bed.. later
Right now, with the exception of Julie, my friends suck. ya ofcourse they say their there for me, but their actions speak otherwise... and remember kids, actions speak louder than words. Julie and I went to Panera yesterday and had almost a 2 hour talk, just catching up on one another. I really miss how things used to be with her. She really was my best friend, and I could always count on her, it just sucks i wasn't always the same to her. Than we went to the mall today, and had an awesome time just being our weird, nerdy selves haha! I think she's alot better influence on me than anyone else, and right now I think thats what i need the most, and someone who will let me talk and just listen (and give advice ofcourse).
So it's getting down to the wire. Bobbi's leaving in like 2 months. It's gonna be one hard, lonely summer without my big sister. everytime i start to think about, i start to get tears in my eyes. ever since my license situation happened, she's been there for me. (Well ofcourse she was before, i just didnt know it). She's like my other half. Like only now, i believe I can trust her with my life. She's been the very best person to talk about, because unlike anyone else, she's been there with me, and knows EXACTLY what I'm going through with my parents. Even though it'll be the funnest summer ever (because of Europe), I'll be on that 8 hour flight back, and know that i have to let my big sister go the next day. my instincts tell me she'll be fine, but i dunno about me yet. I know ofcourse we'll be able to talk and see her like once a couple months or so, but it sucks. She gets to move on with her life, and I'm stuck in seminole with my parents. God this summer's gonna be hard... I love you though!
Ya so enough drama has gone on, that i've become so numb to it all. I don't really care anymore. Like nothing really fazes me anymore. I think it's great, but maybe not. Eric stopped calling me (thank god), but now i have a new one... Mike... oh god what the hell, i always track the weird ones. He calls me TOOO MUCH!!!! but anyways I'm gonna work alittle bit more on humanities before i go to bed.. later