pretty damn obvious but i don't care.
anonymous
August 2 2006, 17:54:30 UTC
i was seeing this boy for years. litterally years. he blames me for giving up. i couldn't hurt like that anymore because he didn't give a shit until it was too late. at first he admited that he didn't do enough. now he tells all his friends that i just stopped caring and it is all my fault. at first i was extrememly hurt by all of this. but now i just don't care. the friends who heard his rumors and talked to me about it said that they knew it wasn't the truth. so i was satisfied. when he broke of contact with me i was so hurt. but now i feel relieved because he is so childish. i don't have to be the 'adult.' i can be myself and not worry about him. i do miss him, but i miss the 'him' from when we were in high school. i had to go. and i am so thankful i did because it was just time. it's rather awkward when people ask about him. i know i'll have to do it for years just because we were 'the couple' in high school. we were going to get married. everyone pretty much expected it. i did too. but i'm not disappointed.
i *almost* feel guilty to say that i am happier now more than i ever was with him. the new beau is everything that i ever wanted and more. i like having a considerate boyfriend for a change. i never thought i would love again. but low and behold i found a stronger love. my hurts diminish and my scars vanish. i've only known him for three months, but i know without a doubt that he is the one i want to spend the rest of my life with. if i were looking at this relationship i would call it crazy and foolish. it doesn't happen like that, right? no one falls in love that fast. because i'm in it i understand. it does work this way. my parents think he's the rebound. his mother hates me and is angry all the time. regardless i love him.
i *almost* feel guilty to say that i am happier now more than i ever was with him. the new beau is everything that i ever wanted and more. i like having a considerate boyfriend for a change. i never thought i would love again. but low and behold i found a stronger love. my hurts diminish and my scars vanish. i've only known him for three months, but i know without a doubt that he is the one i want to spend the rest of my life with. if i were looking at this relationship i would call it crazy and foolish. it doesn't happen like that, right? no one falls in love that fast. because i'm in it i understand. it does work this way. my parents think he's the rebound. his mother hates me and is angry all the time. regardless i love him.
and we were looking at wedding rings.
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